Autumn Leaves

10 // Shredding my flesh

I was going to die, in that very room. I was going to die, just after my life took a turn for the good. Maybe it wasn't that bad though, at least my last memory would be the one by the lake, with Hunter.

Hunter.

A tear slid past my cheekbone to my chin. Was he searching for me? Was he worried? Or had he already given up? I didn't even know how late it was, or what day. For how long I'd been there, I had no clue.

What would my mother say if she saw me like this, helpless and weak. I couldn't even protect myself, nevermind take care of myself. My mother had been right, I wasn't tough enough for the outside world. I wasn't made out of granite like my mother, she'd always call me "porcelain doll" because I was so easy to break.

I had a temper at times, those were the ginger genes my father passed onto me. But those never lasted for long, I'd talk back a little and then cry afterwards. Scared of the consequences.

No I was not your typical heroin.

The funny thing was, I really wanted to be the typical heroin. I wanted to kick ass and be independent. I wanted to have the balls to spit in Ryder's ugly face. I wanted to punch Ryder in the face and break out of this place, but I just...couldn't. I was too...afraid of failure, that it wouldn't work out.

Wolfsbane almost...out...system...

Kiera!

Drain blood...canines

I realized how much I missed my wolf, my other self, when I heard her again. Only once before I'd been injected with wolfsbane, when I was nine I had...aggression issues. I was truly uncontrolable and my Alpha suggested it would work as a punishment.

Let's just say I almost died.

Quick...new shot..canines

That was when I got what she tried to tell me. I had to get the wolfsbane out of my system, so I could shift. I bit my lip hesitantly, would I be able to drain my own blood?

I'd have to seriously injure myself, to get my blood running.

But then again, death or blood loss?

I concentrated on Kiera while I tried to grow my canines, it would make it easier and quicker to use my razorsharp teeth. Sadly, they only got a little pointed, but it would have to do.

Now, I couldn't shred an artery, it would cause too much blood loss and either kill me or make me pass out.

My wrists, I'd heal pretty quickly if I drained the blood fast.

I brought my wrist to my mouth with shaking hands and close my lips around the flesh. I closed eyes shut and pierced my canines through my skin. My teeth hit the arteries in one bite and tears sprung in my eyes. It stung like a bitch.

But even though I tasted blood, I knew it wasn't enough. So I started scraping my fangs to the side, shredding my flesh. I yelped softly and dug my nails into my arm. The blood was dripping down my arms to the floor. But it was still not enough.

I took my other wrist, a lot quicker this time and bit it. Blood filled my mouth as I ripped out a tiny chunk of flesh. There was only little wolfsbane left in my system so I started to feel sharper by the minute.

I flinched and bit back a cry out of pain. Luckily I could heal faster now the wolfsbane was almost gone.

Autumn

Kiera

You have to shift, they're cominmg

I growled and smirked as I regained control over my wolf. I started shifting and suddenly I was back on all fours. I rested my head in my neck and howled the most freeing howl. In one movement I ripped the iron door from its hinges and spit out the blood when the silver spikes hit me. A little bit of silver to stop me? Please.

I was already ready to fight again when the first guard ran into the hall. Before he could shift I snapped the poor guy's spine and ripped out his throat. By now I was seeing red, the anger and anxiety I'd been feeling resulted into pure aggression, taking over my entire being.

Driven by pure bloodlust I ran down the large white halls, killing everyone I passed.

Kiera.

We needed to stop before we would kill someone innocent, like a child. But we didn't.

My feet pounded on the marble floor, leaving blood red paw-prints behind. Never had this feeling been so...possesive.

Never? Don't you remember when ...

No.

Kiera caught me off guard when she reminded me of...the incident. I stopped in my tracks and blinked, the bloodlust felt awfully familiar.

I looked behind me.

Two large, round brown eyes stared at me, accusing me.

No no no, please no.

The child's limb body stared at me with wide open eyes. His blonde hair was sticky with blood and when I looked down at his throat, I almost choked. I had done that, while I was saving my own fucking ass I murdered a child, an innocent kid.

I shifted back, crying and shaking uncontrollably. My knees gave in and I caved down to the ground.

I am so sorry

So fucking sorry

I woke up crying, it never happened. Just another hallucination of Ryder.

Never?

I shut Kiera out and shook my head, clutching my scalp with my nails digging into the skin. How could I forget, the only reason I couldn't escape this rotting hell?

I clenched my jaw. The memory of the tiny, helpless corpse was tattooed on my eyelids and eyes. Everywhere I looked I saw the round eyes of a child. The image would never stop haunting.

"I am so fucking sorry," I mumbled through gritted teeth and I broke down on the cold, white floor.

☾*⋆ *⋆⋆* *⋆ Hunter

"Shit!" I shouted through the forest as I ripped a tree out of the ground an threw it through the forest.

She is ours, he has to die

Elijah growled angrily. I clenched my fists and my nostrils flared, I'd murder him, limp by limp I'd tear him apart.

Autumn was mine.

The thought of her face when she was having the nightmare made me cringe and yelp.

I had no idea how to get her back, but I had no choice. No matter what, I had to find her.

I knew it, I knew that the wolf we encountered earlier was Emmet, Ryder's beta. We should have ran, I shouldn't have taken the risk. I hated myself for being so naive.

And now she was gone.

We have to get help

But who would help us, who would risk their lives for a simple rogue's mate's life?

Finn...

Wuahahaha things getting mysterious up in heraaa

So do you think Hunter will ask Finn's pack for help?

Maybe I ship Hunter and Finn, #Finter? Hey its late over here, dont judge my random brainfarts

I probably wont update for two days, ya know with the holidays and stuff. So yea, sns

I wish you a very merry (insert the holiday you'll be celebrating) and if I don't update before 2015, a happy new year. I bless you all with Alpha mates and hot possesiveness.

No but seriously, I wish you and all your loved ones a happy 2015:)

(9th january this girl's ---> ('･ω･') birthday (this girl is me (you probably knew) btw) just sayin, get yo calander and mark dat magical day)

Hints subtly

Yes I want Andy Biersack's fine booty for my birthday, why you ask?

Sorry, its the brainfarts, im tired

Love ya x ヽ(｀◇')/