My Secret Crush // Choi Beomgyu

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Beomgyu's POV
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"Am I a joke to you? Don't misunderstand me! I'm not an easy guy! You keep shaking my heart. Y/N. You know how I feel about you, why can't you just love me back?"

"BECAUSE I HATE YOU! PLEASE. JUST PLEASE. HATE ME. I can't accept the fact that you like me.." she says as tears ran down her cheeks.

"I-I can't. You're all I think about. All I see is you. You're all I see you. Other than you I see nothing. Without you I can't breathe. I'm nothing without you y/n."

"Just please. I don't want you to like me. Please."

"I can't stop. It's like I'm attracted to you like a magnet."

"It's all your fault Beomgyu. I can't stop thinking about you and I hate it."

"Then keep thinking about me," I say as our faces were only a few inches apart.

"But I don't want to!" She cried.

"Just accept the fact that you love me! I'll do whatever it takes. I'll give you the world."

"What's the point? I don't believe in love.." she says as she finally loosen my hand from her wrist.

"There's no such thing as true love," she says.

"I'll change your mind. I'll show you that there's such thing as true love."

"You're going to leave after."

"Y/N. Just trust me."

"I can't. There's no such thing as true love. It's all a lie," she says as she walks away.

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I can't read her anymore. I sighed and sat down against the brick wall. Resting my head back. Aish. I didn't think girls would be this confusing. So the note wasn't from her.
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Y/N's POV
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"Y/N," a familiar voice says.

"Huh?" I say as I turned to see Mingyu.

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Why is he here? Visiting a high school. He's a college student. I still don't know how he knows me. I heard girls gasping around me.
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"Here," he says giving me a folded piece of paper.

"Huh?"

"Open it later.." he says.

"Wai? This is from you?"

"Mmh," he says walking away from me.

"Wait!"

"Huh?" He says as he turns around.

"How do you know my name?"

"I was the last graduating class here."

"Oh.." I say as he walks away.

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How come I've never seen him. He was a student here. So he's probably a freshman in college.
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I opened the folded paper. I widened my eyes. I quickly put it in my backpack. He gave me his number? Wai? He can't- no. I can't think that. But why else would he give me his number? Out of all the girls. I'm pretty sure all the girls would brag if they got his number. But I haven't heard anything.

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"What did he say?" A girl asks me. 

"Huh?"

"Where is it?"

"Oh um it's nothing."

"Makes sense. It's not like he would be interested in someone like you."

"Huh?"

"It's not like he would give you his number. Aigoo that would be hilarious if he did. Ah jinja. No way he would like you."

"Oh.. umm yeah. Their just notes that's all.."

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I sighed as the hallway was all cleared. I should just ignore it, there's no point of texting him.
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"Yah.." Beomgyu says walking towards me out of the blue.

"Hmm?"

"Come," he says as he pulls my wrist into a janitors closet.

"Yah," I say as he locked it.

"I couldn't sleep last night. Because of you. I'm such an idiot. I'm even risking my sleep for you. I got zero sleep last night. I was up thinking about you," he says as he immediately embraced me in his arms.

"Yah.."

"Don't say anything. Just let me hold you. Just love me back y/n. I need you. When will my heart touch yours?"

"Beomgyu. I- um just please. Let go. I already told you to forget about me."

"I won't be able to forget about you."

"I already forgot about you," I say as he broke the hug.

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He looked deeply into my eyes. I felt butterflies in my stomach. His face leaned into me, as his head tilted. I widened my eyes as everything went by so fast. He kissed me. His soft lips were pressed against my lips.
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"Fine. Go ahead and forget about me," he says as he broke the kiss, and scoffed leaving the janitors closet.

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He just- stole my first kiss. Dang it. Now it's even harder to forget about you. My heart was still racing. Maybe I did fall in love with you Beomgyu. You're not just a small crush. You're someone more than that. Wait ani. I can't just let a small kiss brainwash me! Aish.
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A couple of weeks passed by and Beomgyu actually ignored me. But I couldn't get him out of my head. I didn't want him to ignore me. At lunch he wouldn't even pay any mind to look at me. It feels like we switched our positions. I'm the one who likes him, and now he's the one who hates me. Why do I feel so desperate? My feelings kept growing. Ah. Wai? Why are you shaking my heart? Why is my heart like this now? You're all I see now. I want to feel your presence around me. But now it looks like you're doing well without me. Ever since that day you kissed me, I became more attracted to you. I don't know why my heart is like this. I regret everything I said to him now.
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It's like I'm a ghost to him. He walks past by me in the hallways all the time, but he doesn't dare to even take a glance at me. He really did erase me from his mind. You forgot about me. You look happier without me now. I wouldn't feel upset if I never fell for you. It's your fault I'm like this. I blame you Choi Beomgyu. Now we are actual strangers.
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Everything's over now. There's no going back. I won't be able to feel your presence or have your company anymore. Now I'm just useless. I still feel like there's no such thing as true love. Now I actually believe it. He never loved me in the beginning.
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ty to the two people who voted! i freaking love you guys so muchhhh <33