My Secret Crush // Choi Beomgyu

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4 hours later..
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"Get home safely.." I say as I watch Beomgyu walking.

"I will.." he says as he waves at me smiling.

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I smiled and closed the door. I flopped myself onto the sofa and sighed. Then I widened my eyes. Why am I so smiley? Ani. Ani. I can't. Am I using Beomgyu to forget about Yeonjun? I can't be. Wait. It looks like it. Ah. Beomgyu probably knows. But what if I start to actually like him? I sit next to Yeonjun at school everyday. There won't be a day when I will forget about him and he's my tutor. I should switch seats with Seo-Hyeon again.
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The next day
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I saw Beomgyu walking to the bus stop. I smiled and waved at him, walking towards him. Ah Wai? I finally got to see his soft side. I'm too used to it now.
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We sat down next to each other on the bus. I felt like people were staring me down. Thinking that we were a couple.
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As we arrived at school I sat down at my seat next to Yeonjun. I didn't really pay attention to him. Well I tried not to.
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"Morning Y/N," he says turning to me as I sat down.

"Oh good morning.." I say as I saw Beomgyu staring me down as he sat down from the corner of my eye.

"How was your weekend?"

"It was.. okay."

"Do you always walk to school with Beomgyu?"

"Huh did you follow us?"

"Ani. I just see you guys walk in at the same time everyday."

"Oh. We take the same bus."

"Oh right."

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I sighed and looked away. I can't. I couldn't help it. I knew that I still had feelings for him. It hurts to know that he likes someone else.
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I rested my head on the table, looking towards the wall. Is it obvious? Does he know that I like him? Well liked. I still kinda have feelings for him. But they didn't really fade.
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Last period
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It was almost time to leave. I wasn't really in a good mood today. Yeonjun tried talking to me. But I only said one word responses.
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As class dismissed, I had to go to my locker. I grabbed a couple of notebooks from locker and sighed. Did Beomgyu leave already? I thought he would've waited. Wait why would I care? I sighed and shut my locker tight.

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As I walked outside the school building I saw Yeonjun. He was with the same girl from the library. They were hugging. I sighed and walked away. Trying to hold my tears. He didn't do anything wrong. But isn't it obvious? Yeonjun? I like you. But now I have to throw away these feelings I have for you. I walked to a park and sat on the swings. Good thing it was empty. Tears began to form on my cheeks. I was a crying mess. I couldn't help it. I had to let out my sadness. My feelings. I was holding onto it for way too long. Since Saturday. I held onto my sadness for way too long. Pretending to be okay. I still felt hurt.
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Then I suddenly felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked to see who it was.

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"B-Beomgyu?" I say as I quickly swiped my tears away.

"Y/N.." he says as I heard pain in his voice.

"What are you-"

"Gwenchana?" He says as he suddenly caressed my cheeks looking at me and crouching.

"Mmh.." I say as I sniffed looking away.

"Y/N.." he said as he wiped my tears.

"Hm?"

"Is this because of Yeonjun?"

"Ani.."

"I know you're hurt.." he says as he rests his forehead on mines.

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I gently shut my eyes and sighed.

"Let it all out.." he says as he hugged me tightly, pulling me up from the swing.

"Mmh.." I say as wrapped my arms around his waist crying in his chest.

"Don't worry y/n. It's going to be alright," he says as he strokes his fingers through my hair resting his chin on my head.

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Beomgyu's POV
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I sighed and hugged her tightly closing my eyes. She must really like him. I can tell that she's never been in love. Ah. Wai. Yeonjun Hyung. What have you done. I couldn't help but kiss the crown of her head.
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I can't do anything. But I hated the fact that he was the one who made her cry. I've never seen anyone cry so much. And she's only crying because of Yeonjun.
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"Y/N.."

"Hm?"

"Can we stay like this longer?"

"Oh.." she says as she hugs my waist tighter looking up at me.

"Gomawo.." I say as I rested my forehead on hers.

"Gomawo Beomgyu. For being there for me. You have always been there for me."

"From now on, I will be by your side whenever you need me."

"Then I'll need you to be my side for 24 hours straight," she says pouting.

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I sighed. I like her way too much. I'm doing all of this for her, even though she likes someone else. Hopefully she likes me at the end. I have to find a way to win her heart.
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"You know that I love you right?" I blurted out.

"Huh? You do?"

"Pabo. You know that."

"Sometimes I wonder if you're actually serious. It feels impossible for someone like you to like me. It doesn't feel real."

"Wai?"

"Because I'm just an average, below average girl."

"In my eyes you're above average out of all of the girls."

"But-" she says as she gulped.

"I hope one day you'll realize how much you mean to me."

"Beomgyu.."

"I think it would be better if you stopped thinking about Yeonjun."

"But i-"

"It would be better if you start thinking about me."

"Yah.."

"Wai? I didn't think I would fall in love with you this much."

"It's not easy.."

"It would be better if I could keep you. Instead of having yourself wrapped around Yeonjun."

"Fine. I'll stop thinking about him.