Anxiety

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A room scattered with people,
Waiting for the countless others coming.
Decorations cover the walls
And lights shine around the room.
Some race around the area,
Others expose the tables along the walls.

To the side, I sit alone with my friends
When suddenly I feel their presence.
The one of my enemy looming over me,
Ready to attack.
Their fingers slowly wrap
Around the upper half of my body.
Long, wispy tentacles suffocating me
Until I can take it no longer.

I hide, trying to become invisible
In the bright lights all around.
Although it's easy to try,
Escaping that sticky grasp of theirs
Is an elusive dream.

They quickly find me,
Soaking my face in streaks of petty worry.
I want to leave, but then I'd be stuck outside
Leaving my "friends" to worry and wonder,
Yet at the same time,
Going back would leave me vulnerable
And in the perfect position
For an even worse onslaught
From my deadliest pursuer

I'm stuck, frozen between choices,
Unsure of what to do.
My heart wants to flee the scene,
Leave no trace of the presence I had,
And my brain wants to stay,
Fight the war despite my casualties.

I find a middle ground somewhere,
A place to please my heart and mind.
Someplace where I can become invisible,
But still seen by the ones I'm here for,
While sticking around to fight my battle
Just as much as I can
And still make it out alive

Time escapes me as I sit,
The cool of the air around me
Slowly washing away my worry
And making it seem as if I wasn't there,
Just watching from afar
When two of them come to check on me.
Two of the friends I came with,
The only two who seemed to notice
That I had disappeared.

I tell them to go back,
Wanting them to have their fun
And not sit here,
Wasting their money with me.
No one else cares,
So why should they?

As my eyes follow them through the door,
I'm suddenly aware of the crowd inside,
And the slow flow of bodies outside.
Without the crisp air surrounding me,
Their presence would have been a threat.

Soon, my enemy begins to creep closer,
About to attack.
I recognize that crazed look of theirs,
A flame in their translucent eyes,
Burning strong and bright,
The one that can only be quenched by attacking
Unless I can escape

I flee quickly,
Desperate to avoid unnecessary ambush.
An unknown hero
Comes to the rescue,
Taking me away from this compromised war field.

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