Our Two-Faced Love || KIM CHAEWON

PRODUCE

It's been about a month since I shut her out of my life, The five of us that were selected to participate on Produce 101, worked hard and practiced our evaluation performance til our knees buckled down to the cold wooden floors.

All that could be heard in the room were the combined pants of five grown adult-teens drenched in so much sweat that their shirts began to suck up their sweat.

Hyunseok, the oldest was the first to break the silence. "Next week, Produce starts and we're gonna show everyone, how hard we practice and how determined we are. This is our dream we can't let this opportunity disappear." One by one he grabbed all of our hands and put it in a circle, holding our hands together tightly. "We're all gonna make it to the final lineup, we can do it. I know we can."

It wasn't long after that the company CEO came into the practice room, wishing luck to all the five boys in the room.

1 WEEK LATER.

Clik-Clak-Clik

"KONTENT ENTERTAINMENT, WILL BE PERFORMING NEXT!"

The ruffling of jeans sliding against each other echoed off the thin walls.

As the five of us slowly made our way onto the evaluation stage, the eyes of all 101 trainees along with the judges were on us, something that would normally make me nervous if I wasn't excited about finally being on the show.

All the judges from the previous season were sitting in their seats, waiting for the performance to begin among them was Kim Chaewon and the rest of the IZ*ONE members, staring at the five of us getting in position. 

I purposely avoided her gaze, looking at the other judges instead.

"1,2,3, Hello! We are KONTENT trainees and we'll be performing 'Movie Star' by CIX!" Hyunseok shouted as the rest of us stood in line, smiling brightly.

"Ah, please perform whenever you're ready, good luck." The strict tone of the judges gave me slight chills as I walked into position, taking a breath and exhaling, waiting for the music to start.

As the music began to take off, we all began to dance in sync, dancing and singing with all of our energy and determination, every single one of us has been waiting for the opportunity to debut, we we're just going to give it up for others.

As the song began to fade out, the echo of our breaths could be heard through the speakers, we were almost completely drained from the constant late night practices, but ultimately I had no regrets.

As we gathered in a line and waited for the judges to announce our ranks, the room lights changed to a dark and eerie blood red, all the lights quickly moved towards the entrance of the room where 12 girls could be seen standing, it was IZ*ONE and among them was Kim Chaewon.

For the first time in months we made eye contact with each other and a tsunami of thoughts began to flood my brain before I felt a hand pat me on my shoulder, bringing my back to my senses as I quickly broke the eye contact and looked away.

"For this season of PRODUCE 101, IZ*ONE will participate as judges and coaches, please treat them kindly." The room was now quiet other than the occasional wows and ohs. The judges quickly broke the silence as the lights returned to their normal colors and returned to the stage.

"We will now announce the rankings for, KONTENT trainees."

After the nerve-wrecking evaluations we all took in a sigh of relief, we were all given a B rank. It wasn't what we hoped for but it wasn't the lowest and I was fine with that. The evaluations continued for what seemed like forever, and when we were all escorted outside of the main building the sky was pitch black the only thing illuminating it was the bright glow of the moon.

I was separated from my fellow members and assigned to a room with a small group of trainees, none of us really interacted with each other since we were all so exhausted. The room was dead silent as everyone attempted to fall asleep after such a harsh first day impression, until the feeling of a constant buzz in my pocket forced me awake.

Pulling the phone up to my eyes and blinding myself with the brightness, I received a text from none other than, Kim Chaewon.

Chaewon.

Chaewon.
Can we talk? Meet me outside of the side doors of the main building. 2:36 am.

I despise you, Kim Chaewon.

You always know how to make me feel happy, but you also know how to tear me apart.