You & Me (Jenlisa) - Completed

7 - You don't really like me

Lisa POV

It has been a while since we moved in to the apartment. Everything seems fine. Miyeon got a car so she and Jennie will always go to work together. I think Chaeng got hers too so she and Jisoo always go to class together. I prefer to take my bike. I sold off my bicycle after we moved because there is no point to keep it.

I spend most of my time in my room because apparently I think Jennie is distancing herself from me and I have no idea why. She refused to be in the study group and study by herself or most of the time she will be with Miyeon. The end result that I'm afraid of is happening. Jennie finally got to her senses and hates me now.

Sometimes she purposely went out with other guys like V or Jungkook just to make me jealous. When I waited for her in our apartment, she just gave me a blank look and went in her room. The next day, she will only talks with Miyeon or with Chaeng and ignore me. In our class, she no longer sit beside me. Miyeon always took her place and eventually I started to seat very far from the group.

Am I that disgusting to you Jennie until you hate me so much? What did I do until you distancing yourself from me?

My brain keeps on repeating the words and it hurt me deeply. When we first move to this apartment, I wanted to show more affection to her so I keep on buying small item wherever I go and give to her secretly with message. Sometimes it is just bookmark. Sometimes it is keychains. I just want her to know that I appreciate her.

And because of that, she distanced herself from me. In our new semester she took different classes from me and sticks with Miyeon. Miyeon too tried to be close to me but I ignore her. I entertained her because of Jennie. Jennie never smiles at me anymore. Most of the time, she will be in her room. I can only hear she came out when I close my door. I get it, she is disgusted with my affection.

Sometimes I cried when it gets too sad but most of the time I tried my best to ignore the hurt that is building up on me. She once ditched me when she promised all of us should hang out but when I get ready, she invited Miyeon to go somewhere else. Jisoo knows how I am feeling. Chaeng just spend her time with me. She herself distanced herself from Jennie. She said Jennie is a different person now. I don't blame her though. It's me, I did all of this. I pushed Jennie away.

It's almost 6 months since she really ignored me, even when I tried to invite her to ride with me back to her house, she will decline and just went with Miyeon. Miyeon now is her new best friend. Miyeon was known to be bisexual and she likes both man and woman. She always suggests Jennie to date V or Jungkook or go out for a double date.

They are like the twins now dating the boys here and there and I know Jennie wants to hurt my feelings. I think she knows I like her. I don't need to say it because my actions speak louder. I guess she is just another Tzuyu to me. I remember last time when she needed help from me; I will be the first person to help her. We even install internet connection and I made a special wiring to get her network boost in her room.

I guess when she got everything from me; I am no longer useful to her. I am just a disgusted Lesbian who loves her with my full heart. Miyeon seems to be really happy when she saw Jennie no longer entertains me. Sometimes I can see she whisper something to Jennie while looking at me. After that, I can see how Jennie will make her disgusted face to me.

Why did you do that Jennie? You can just walk away if you want too but don't ever degrade me that bad. When I am in one of the Artificial Intelligent class, I remember I skyped you to get answers because you are the only with Miyeon who completed the lab first. You just asked me to answer it myself. How dare you Jennie? When you don't know about certain stuff, I am the first one to help you with it.

You and Miyeon laugh at me when I got bad result for certain quiz. Why are you bullying me? Is it wrong for me to like you? If you really hate me, then I will not care about you anymore. I look at the book with all my writings. Everything was pour there in the book on how I love Jennie and my heart wrenching notes. Today will be the last one I will write for you Jen, I love you but sometimes, Love is about letting go. So I will let you go this time.

You see a person's true colours,

When you are no longer...

Beneficial to their life...

Is that you Jen?

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough,

But I tried to be..

I tried to change everything...

About myself..

Till I didn't know who was me.

Turns out,

You never did care,

Coz you never saw you...

And me as "We"..

I have a hopeless crush,

On someone...

That I have no chance with..

If I had a rose,

For every time I thought of you,

I'd be picking Roses...

For a Lifetime..

I'm sorry..

I gave you everything I had..

Without making sure..

You wanted it..

Goodbye Jennie..

You are my greatest love..

And also my greatest disaster..

Remember me,

When you want to...

But for now..

I'm giving you up...

I cried and suddenly Jisoo went in the room after her date with Chaeng. She saw me and hugs me. She knows how hurt I am and she never said any word but just pat me from behind.

That is all I need because I will continue my life without caring for the person I care the most.

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Hello All,

How is the FF so far? I felt sad when I write this.

I know how it felt to get rejected.

How about you guys? Do tell me your thoughts okay!

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XOXO,

TinieT4