You & Me (Jenlisa) - Completed

16 - Why are you not happy for me?

Lisa POV

It has been 2 years already since we work in the same company. Me and Jisoo are doing good so we are offered early employment letter. Jisoo was so happy that she told Chaeng and she went down to hug her. I felt envy with their relationship. Jennie will never do that here. She is so scared of us having something.

"My chickennnn!! I am so happy for you!" Chaeng was giving hugs to her then to me.

"I know right.. Let's go shopping Chipmunk! My treat for you since this is a special day" Jisoo replied with full of love. Both of them look at me and ask where is Jennie.

I texted her about my accomplishment and she just say "Good Job". Then no reply at all, no celebration at all. When she got her confirmation last time, I remember celebrating it with her but I have no response for my celebration.

I just smile at them and said it's okay. I can celebrate myself. They want to invite me but I don't want to be their third wheel as usual. I've been third wheeling them since Jennie is never with me. Her reasons was always bowling here and bowling there.

There's one time Jisoo followed me to bowling centre to meet Jennie and she was pissed off seeing Jennie being so close with Kai and laugh like he is the boyfriend. Jennie says hi to us but then ignore us after. She said she needs to focus. Jisoo treat me Ice Cream later because she knows how sad I am that day.

When we returned home that day, I expected Jennie to hug me saying congratulations and stuff but she just said she was tired and need to rest.

Why are you like this Jennie? Do you hate me already?

"Jennie, what is wrong with you this couple of months? I got my employment and you are not happy with it?" I questioned her because I feel that I need to confront her.

"What do you mean Lili? I am happy for you; just I am tired with my bowling practice. You saw me at the bowling centre right? I cannot be tired now?" She counters my questions and I am hurt when she blames me not understanding her.

"Are you Jen? Are you really happy for me? For once, ignore your bowling for a while or your work and focus on me. It's bad enough you don't want people to know about us? You smile more to Kai rather than me? Do you hate me now? Am I a disturbance to your career?" I was at the verge of tears but I don't want to cry in front of her. She looks at me and her face softens. She cups my cheeks.

"Lili, of course I am happy. I am sorry for being ignorance with your employment. I am just too tired. Let's celebrate tomorrow? Don't be mad baby" She talked to me softly and I just smile. Somehow why I never felt her sincerity anymore? I nod and asked her to take her shower and sleep. I went outside to my balcony and look outside.

Jennie, you have changed. A lot and I don't see me in your future anymore.

I went inside going back to my room when I heard Jennie's laugh. Her laugh that is always for me but it is no longer for me. I stand by the door and listen to her laugh. Apparently she was talking to someone on the phone.

"Kai, we will meet tomorrow and you still need to teach me many things. You are funny Kai! Hahaha stop making jokes anymore. I cannot stand laughing like this, my cheeks hurt. Thank you for releasing my stress. It was bad, even when I'm at home.. See you tomorrow"

Once she dropped her call, I went in looking at her. She was surprise and put her phone away.

"Kai the stress reliever eh? I bring you stress at night Nini?"

"It's not like that Lili, let's not fight tonight okay. I am tired and it's just a friendly talk. I am with you am I not?" She said like nothing happen and I refused to fight anymore. Today was supposed to be my happy day and let me celebrate it alone.

"Okay whatever you say Nini, I'm just going to celebrate myself at the living room. Please sleep because you are tired. Good Night Nini" and with that, I went outside because I don't want to show her my tears that pooling down.

I went over my notebook and while having me tears, I wrote what my heart felt today

Hey Jennie,

Do you know,

Tears comes from the heart,

And not from the brain.

Jennie,

Nowadays,

I love the rain,

Because when it rains,

Nobody can see my tears for you.

There is one pain,

I often feel,

Which you will never know.

It's caused by the

Absence of you.

Hey Jennie,

Sometimes all I can do

Is lie in bed

And Hope to fall asleep

Before I fall apart

I close my notebook and wiped my tears. I went in the room and saw Jennie already fell asleep. I pull the blanket to cover her and kiss her forehead.

I love you Jennie but we both know how toxic we are right now. I still trust you baby, I am. Please don't throw us away.

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Why am I still upset writing this?!

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xoxo,

TinieT4