The Cult

Dazed

Jo's POV
Morning of Day 1

"You can't tell you don't want me to leave Jo! You can't tell me you don't want me to go America!" Kat yells at me from the other side of the door. I've had a long day, no long week.

"Just go away Kat, please! I can't do this right now." I say as tears roll down my face from the other side of the door.

"I'm leaving tomorrow! What do you mean YOU can't do this now?!" She yells back at me and I close my eyes, tears flowing down. Matt broke up with me today, and I found out that Mum is sick, I probably won't get into the college I want to go to in London, and now Kat is pestering me about this. I just can't, I can't anymore.

"Kat I'm begging you, please go away." I choke back a sob, but tears stream down my face. I don't get why she had to do this now. Didn't she see how annoyed and frustrated I was when I got home?

"No Jo, let me in," she says and messes with the door handle, pushing the door open, and pushing me away from it. "Talk to me Jo, what's going on?" She asks softly in the way a sister should talk to you.

"I- I can't..." it goes deeper then all of it. Wayyyy deeper; just deep things I don't even wanna think about. Things I've begged myself to forget.

Wake up, wake the hell up.

"Kat!" I run towards her, giggling a little more. We were just kids, only 15. Not fully a teenager, not an adult, and not a kid. Just in between. She was 17 because her birthday had already passed. She hugs me, and I turn to liquid in her arms. I missed her, so so much.

"Jo, my little Jo I missed you so much." She says and I keep hugging her. "Guess where we're gonna go later," she says and I look at her confused.

"Where Kat? You never let me come with you anywhere." I laugh and she moves my flowing hair from my face.

"There's a party at the beach, me and you are gonna go." She smiles, bringing me inside and dressing me in mostly black, not putting much makeup on, only smile clear lip gloss. On the other hand, she practically looks like a stripper.

When we get there, drinks are put into our hand. Kat drinks it, so I follow her lead. But from there, everything turns to blackness. Like it's not there anymore, like nothing seems to come up.

  I wake up with a start, siting up and feeling the gross sweat cover my body. Oh my god, oh my god, oh my godddd. What's happening to me, why do I have an overwhelming feeling I need to do something. Do something he tells me to do.

  I get off the bed and I look in the mirror. Not much has changed from what I remember, except the fact that I'm now in a blue dress with a white ribbon going through my braided hair. My lips are now dark pink and perfect, while the flowers that Mason put in are gone. I look around, slowly walking over to Kat's desk.

-She's doing it, she's always doing it. Mason said she isn't really with us, but she's my sister I can't do what he asked-

  I read and reread the scribbles on the notebook over and over again, but I'm just so out of it. I feel like I'm floating and I can't really do anything about it.

  I slowly stroll over to the door, opening it, seeing the bright yellow hallway. A few little girls run by me, only one face I recognize and that same girl is in the same outfit as me. Sofie.