Nightmare ✔

Love Isn't Always Fair

Here we go. Thanksgiving break is in like a week! :D I'm soooooo excited. I get to see my cousin. She's awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Plus, no school! If only for a week. :/ Oh well. Excuse me from the mistakes to. I took some medication and it made me high as a kite. So I'm loopy.

Edited: 6/21/2015

The room had stilled as Jimmy held me in his arms. I felt like I let him down. He had appeared and that's the one thing he hadn't wanted to do. This was going to cause more problems than what it was worth. I blamed Michelle. If it weren't for Brian fucking her, I wouldn't have blurted out I fucked Jimmy, thus causing problems with him and him appearing. If I was capable of murder, Michelle would be six feet under.

I didn't really have a right to be angry with her though. Brian was doing what I had suggested. Moving on. Why did it have to be with Michelle? If I hadn't entered the picture I had no doubt Brian would be married to her right now. Valuable lesson in life: Love Isn't Always Fair! I knew that all to well.

"Jimmy?" Matt's voice filled the silent room. I didn't let go of Jimmy though.

"Yeah?" Jimmy responded and tightened his grip. I heard a soft laugh.

"Dude! Jimmy! I can't believe it." Matt said. I turned my head to look at him. His dimples were prominet on his face. His eyes were filled with joy. He glanced at me and his eyes darkened. He was angry with me. That was understandable. I had caused a small fight. Something none of them were stable enough to handle right now. "It's good to see you again Jim." He said not taking his eyes off of me. I turned my head away. Causing me to looking at Brian and Zacky.

Both of their eyes were glassy. It looked like all the fight had drained out of Brian's body. I wanted to say I was sorry. Believe me when I say I do. At one time if that man was hurt, I'd be the one feeling the pain because I loved him that much. I still love him that much. That just made it that much worse though. The fact that he was hurt because of me made me angry. He didn't deserve this.

"I'm sorry Brian. I shouldn't have said what I did. I... I didn't really sleep with Jimmy!" I cried. I wanted to make it better.

"I know when you are lying Kat. You sure as hell weren't lying then." Brian whispered. I was shaking. I slipped away from a frozen Jimmy. I slipped forward and in to, suprisingly, Brian's arms. He held me to him tightly. I sobbed. He shook. "I forgive you though. You and Jim. Mostly because I really can't hold it against you. Like you said, you're dead. You don't have me tying you down." That's all it took for me to figure out he was upset. Really upset. He was just hiding his emotions

"Brian, I didn't mean that! I was upset, now you are upset. I... I did move on. I moved on cause Jimmy is someone that I can be with. I can be with him, I can't be with you." I told him trying to get him to understand.

"So basically Jimmy is just second choice!" I winced at Matt's words. I turned to face him.

"No! You know that's not true Matthew!"I shouted.

"Do I?" He was taunting me.

"I had never planned on being with Jimmy." I looked over at him. He was staring at me with love. He knew what I was going to say. "I didn't have sex with him because it was something to do. I fell in love with him. He made me fall in love all over again.

"Yes, at first I felt like I was cheating on Brian. Like I said though, I'm technically dead. I can't be with Brian anyways." I stepped closer to Jimmy. He opened his arms. "I still love you Brian, but I love Jimmy too. He's mine and I don't have to worry cause he's the only thing that matters. I love him." I pressed my lips to his. "I love you."

"I love you to. I'm sorry we hurt you Brian. It was unintentional. I love you man, you're my brother. I hope you can acutally forgive me. It's so good to see you, I don't want to leave you hating me." Jimmy told him.

"I won't hate you Jim. You're my brother. I'm not gonna let a hoe, no offense Kat, come in between us." I could tell Brian was still upset though. They man hugged. Only the hug didn't last a few seconds. It lasted a few minutes. They hadn't seen eachother in a few years.

Zacky joined the hug along with Johnny. Matt joined it as well after rudely bumping his shoulder against mine. I winced but brushed off the anger it held as my form flickered. He had the right to be. It was enough anger for him and Brian both though. Zacky was the first to break off. He came straight to me, pulling me in and holding me. I allowed myself to finally let it out. I allowed myself to "cry." He hushed me.

"Don't cry Kat." Zacky whispered. "You fell in love. There isn't anything wrong with that. Don't let Matt get to you. He doesn't understand that you can fully be with Jimmy." I smiled up at my best friend.

"I love you Zacky. I miss you." He laughed bitterly, tears falling from his eyes.

"God, I love you Kat. I miss you more than you can imagine." He squezzed me once then let go.

"Better watch out. Kat's moving in on Zacky now." I tensed at Matt's cruel words.

"Hey! Don't disrespect her like that!" Brian said and pushed him.

"I agree with Brian. The lady deserves some respect!" Jimmy said and shoved him, mimicking Brian's actions.

"Fuck that!" Matt glared at me and left the room.

"Where does he plan on going? He can't leave the bus, it's fucking moving." Jimmy said and chortled.

We all began laughing at his antics. We decided to have a guy day. Despite the fact I was in the group. We watched Family Guy. My favorite show besides Tosh.0. We were on the ground laughing at Meg and Brian. She had decided she was going to go after him and put her hair into a pie. This show fucking promotes pedophilia and beastiality. I love it. Only as a joke though!

"Fuck! Meg should just give up already." Brian laughed and I slipped my feet on to his lap and layed my head on Jimmy's shoulder. This was our way of getting the awkwardness away. Plus we had been talking during the episode. "So to be serious Kat... Who's better? Me... or Jimmy." If I could blush I would have.

"Well, Brian, you were into the whole Dom/Sub shit. That was incredibly hot. Jimmy is agressive and bites. A lot. That turns me on beyond belief and he was all around pretty big. So Jimmy. Sorry Brian." I said it without a thought. The guys mouth drops open. Well Jimmy's doesn't. He just laughs and kisses my cheek.

"God you are more of a slut then I thought!" Matt said coming into the room.

"Ok. Dude not cool. I think it's best you apologize to Kat man." Zacky said and stood up.

"Or what." Matt smirked.

"Or I'll rip your fucking dick off!" Zacky said and pushed his shoulders. I glanced between the two and stood.

"Guys chill. It's ok Zacky. He's angry and that's understandable. So you relax Zacky." I said and pretty much told him to stand down. Matt rolled his eyes.

"Stay out of this." Matt and Zacky both said.

Oh boy. Looks like were gonna have a spitting contest.