Nightmare ✔

Shattered By Broken Dreams

Heres the next chapter. GUYS IT'S THANKSGIVING BREAK! HELL TO THE MOTHERFUCKING YEAH! So you can probably guess I'm excited. Well, I'm more than excited! So here's this to show how much I'm excited. Also, go check out my new Avenged Story. It's called Welcome To The Family. It's cowritten by facesofthedead. So go fan her and read her stories! I'm going to be story whoring for a while. It needs love. By the way. I hope this clears up some of the anger towards Matt. After all, he's just upset.

Edited: 6/21/2014

As soon as Zacky and Matt decided to quit having a pissing contest, which lasted a surprisingly long hour, he'd left to go wherever. The bus had stopped. I decided to save my energy and was no longer visible to the guys. Jimmy was. He had some catching up to do. So I was lounged out on the couch. Jimmy had kindly informed them I was still here. So they looked hilarious while they walked around, scared I would pop out at them or they'd walk through me. I kind of wanted to scare them. I wouldn't though cause I loved them too much.

This whole thing with Matt was bringing me down. He was my best friend, well, one of them at least. So hearing him call me mean names like slut, and whore. It upset me. Understandably though. Matt's opinion always meant a lot to me. I didn't understand why he was so angry. Brian had gotten over it for the most part. Yeah, he was upset over it. He wasn't acting like a dick, Matt was. The fact that I was letting him get inside my head was even worse. He was right. I was a whore. I mean... I did basically cheat on Brian. I still loved him when I had sex with Jimmy.

I was a slut. Period. There was no doubt in my mind about that. Jimmy stared at me from his spot in the room where he sat laughing with the guys. He shook his head at me.

"You are not a slut Kat. So stop thinking you are." He said it aloud. The guys all stopped talking and followed his line of vision to where I sat.

"She thinks she's a slut!" Zacky whispered. Jimmy nodded. He looked just to the left of where I was sitting. "Show yourself Kat." He said. I could tell he was mad by the slight flush his face held. I shook my head at Jimmy.

"Do as he says Kat." Jimmy ordered. I sighed and allowed myself to appear.

As soon as I did that  Brian was up and sitting beside me. He pulled me into his arms. For a second, everything went away and I whimpered.

"Don't listen to Matt, doll. He's just mad right now. He doesn't really mean what he says, alright?" Brian whispered in my ear.

"The thing is he is right Bri. I am a slut. I had sex with Jimmy. I love him, but that doesn't change the fact that I cheated." I sobbed. Jimmy appeared beside me and placed his hand on my knee. Rubbing circles on my leg as he did so.

"No. You didn't cheat." Brian's voice was fierce. "You may feel like you did, but you didn't. I don't count it as cheating, so neither should you." I shook my head. Brian grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. "You. Are. Not. A. Slut. You didn't cheat. Matt had no right to say what he did." Brian eyes held anger. I sighed.

"Sure." I offered. I was only saying that so he would leave me alone. He knew that to.

"What's it gonna take for you to believe him Kitten?" Jimmy whispered.

"Nothing Jimmy. I thought I had gotten past feeling like I was cheating. Hearing Matt accuse me of that, it just brought it back." I wished I could cry. The thing I miss the most about being alive is crying.

"We love you Kat. None of us here think you are a slut. You fell in love. There is nothing wrong with that. If Matt can't accept that, well... Fuck him." Johnny said. I hadn't realized he had moved so he was crouched down in front of me.