Nightmare ✔

Shadows Of My Heart

 So... I'm mad. I had this chapter ALL typed out... and then it deletes itself.... what the fuck, bro? Also, no offense to Rednecks cause I'm one myself. Born in Arkansas and raised in Louisiana. 

THIS CHAPTER IS NOT FOR KIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Edited: 6/21/2014

Matt's P.O.V.

"...att!" What the hell was that? "Matt!" Is that... Johnny? "Matt for fucks sake! Wake up!" I jolted awake as I felt a sharp stinging sensation on my cheek. The Fuck?

I pryed my eyes open and sure enough... Johnny stood above me. I blinked up at him owlishly. I brought my hand up to my face and rubbed my stinging cheek. I glanced around to see if the rest of the guys were in there laughing at my misfortune. Nope. Just me and Johnny Boy.

"The hell man?" I growled and stood.

"Well... you wouldn't wake up so I took matters into my hands, literally." I glared down at the smaller man. He smirked up at me viciously. "Why the fuck were you lying in the middle of the floor in the first place?"

"To that first thing... That's what she said." Johnny rolled his eyes. "The second thing... Dude, I seriously can't remember how I ended up on the floor. All I remember is going to the bar and getting drunk with some guy. I think his name was Mike? I don't know." Johnny laughs at me.

"Nice dude. Get drunk to solve your problems. You've fucked up with Kat. You need to fix it. She cried her eyes out yesterday dude. Except there's the fact it was more this... awkward tearless sobbing that I kept having to prevent myself from laughing at."

"Like you don't fucking drink to solve or avoid things!" I glare at the wall. My hand still hurt really fucking bad. Why the hell did I punch a wall?! "You think I don't know that Johnny?" I sighed and ran my hand through my hair. I was going to ignore that last part.

I was tired of dealing with this shit. Of dealing with Kat. I thought when she died... I'd move on and stop loving her. I didn't. Not one single bit. It multiplied. Sevenfold.

Yeah, I totally just did that. Laugh all you fucking want. It won't bother me. 

I can't believe I acted like such an ass to Kat. I guess in some way... She may have deserved it. Not all of the things I'd said though. I should have told her why I was so upset. That's the right thing to have done. Not be a little bitch about it. I can't change things now.

"Johnny. Can I tell you why I was so upset, and not have you go tell Jimmy or Brian or Zacky or even Arin? Sure as hell not Kat. I don't care if you tell Lacey. Just make sure she doesn't tell." He nodded.

"Dude, I'm your best friend. Of course you can tell me." I sighed and took a deep breath.

"Johnny... I may have been, no still am, in love with Kat." His mouth fell open and closed quickly again. He began repeating those action. "You look like a fucking fish." I told him.

"Why is everyone so in love with Kat. I mean I know she's hot... But seriously." Johnny shook his head. "I'm sorry dude. I know I'm not helping when I say this but... did that really give you a reason to act that way towards her?" I sighed and shook my head.

"No. It just made me feel better if I told myself that." Johnny nodded.

"You should talk to Kat. Hell! Even Jimmy." I nodded my head wearily.

"I'll think about it."

"That's all I'm asking." Johnny said and we did that bro hug thing.

"Johnny?"