omega . knj x bts

( vi ) . rings

🧸⋆˚ namjoon ˊ˗

min yoongi.

that name just makes me even sadder, it brings back memories from a few years ago.

he used to love me, he doesn't love me anymore, because i'm the fucking leader!

like is that an actual reason to hate someone? i think the fuck not.

he wasn't nice to me at all, it doesn't matter if i am an alpha or leader or whatever, he just didn't like me, anymore.

all he wanted to be since he was young was to be a pack leader, like his father was. he was inspired by his father.

he also follows the rule where omegas can't be leaders, but that's just what he and his family think, that's not what the rest of the pack thinks. 

yoongi hated me already, but now he probably hates me even more, seeing that i was lying this whole time and all these years he had suppressed his anger on me, so just maybe he's going to snap.

yoongi has a thing for feeding lies to hoseok, about me, that i ruined yoongi's life or something like that, and i'm like 'bitch where?' he ruined my life and now they both hate me.

what have i done to deserve this?

me and yoongi hyung used to be a couple, unknown to the members, we were in a relationship, not a healthy one, that is. before we presented, everything was great, everyone was happy and no one cared about ranks, everyone was equal.

"when i present, will you still love me despite my rank?" i would ask.

"i will love you no matter what," yoongi said as he pulled me in a kiss.

lies, all lies.

once yoongi presented as an alpha, we were still in a relationship but he started getting more aggressive towards me.

right after i presented he got mad that i was an alpha too! well, i wonder if he'd be happier if i told the truth and said that i was an omega, but then again, he would've used me for his ruts.

he would hit me and stuff and i kept it all a secret.

so it doesn't get him into trouble. 

"no! you're the bottom!" yoongi kept saying and namjoon was done with everything, he didn't want to break up with yoongi, i was just too scared to let go.

"what do you mean i'm the bottom?" i would ask and yoongi would just get madder, like what the fuck did i do?

"you have no worth! i'm using you!" he said, something about it makes me think that he meant it.

 i just faked being an alpha that time, in hopes to be a leader. 

bang shi-hyuk wanted me to be the leader, what else do i do? not listen to him?

yoongi just wants to dominate every person he meets.

sure enough, he met hoseok, who also wanted to debut and was debuting along with us and the rest. 

i caught yoongi and hoseok making out in the living room when they thought i went outside.

i didn't tell.

i thought it was my fault that i wasn't able to satisfy yoongi's needs, but that was my heart, my mind was saying otherwise.

i was such a weak and naive person, i let him use me one last time before he said he was with someone else, which i already knew, but i didn't tell, but he said he wanted to break up with me multiple times before, as a threat so i listen to him.

i still didn't let go, i kept begging that we shouldn't.

until he told me that we really should break up and that i should stop being a weak bitch, also that he was with hoseok now so i can't beg.

i cried all night, those cold nights felt grim, i couldn't eat for a few days because of how devastated i was.

i thought he was the one.

to add on to the sadness i already had, the hate comments kept getting to my head more.

'that's probably why yoongi hyung doesn't want to date me, i'm ugly' i mumbled to myself, now i know that's not the truth and he's just mad that i'm the leader of both the pack and the group.

only after a few years, i realized how toxic he was, i couldn't get over him for a few years, even if he moved on, i was still left behind.

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yoongi was already mad at namjoon.

he was even more furious when he found out namjoon was an omega, 'how dare he?' yoongi thought angrily.

he had a scowl on his face the whole time.

"i could've been the fucking pack alpha! even that, i would've been a better one!" he shouted loudly.

"yoongi! for fuck's sake, namjoon just fainted and that's all you care about right now?" seokjin says as he shook his head, as mad as yoongi.

"why the fuck is jungkook even crying!?" he says as jungkook glares at him with teary eyes.

yoongi really didn't care that namjoon fainted, all he cares was that he could've been the pack alpha, he did feel a bit remorse, though, only a bit.

"whatever" yoongi says as he carelessly sits on hoseok's lap as hoseok holds on to him, in the wrong situation.

jimin rolls his eyes at the scene in front of him.

"you really should be caring about namjoon hyung, guys" he says as the both of them scowl at him.

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"yoongi-hyung, can i help you with the song-"

"get out," yoongi says bluntly, not even looking back.

hoseok and yoongi were working in the studio and namjoon wanted to help as well, but he was too scared of their reaction which resulted in him stuttering.

namjoon really wanted to help considering that it was a rap line song and all the members of the rap line should do it together.

yoongi and hoseok makes the song and records it, then tells namjoon to do the rest, alone.

yoongi knew namjoon would be a big help to the song, but he was jealous of him.

"but hyung-"

"i said get the fuck out! what kind of alpha are you? you're not even close to dominant like what the fuck? you're more like a beta if you're really not an omega!" yoongi snaps at namjoon as namjoon flinches and hoseok chuckles.

namjoon was hurt, 'no, i'm not a beta, i'm an omega and i'll never tell them' namjoon thought.

this happens every single day,the members comparing how much he is like an omega compared to how much he is an alpha, at this point, namjoon's used to it.

"ok," namjoon says sadly as he walks away from the studio after he closes the door.

🧸 ₊˚🥨˚₊🧸 author's note :

1.2k

the next five chapters are going to be how they treated namjoon and how they think of namjoon like this chapter.

don't misunderstand, i love namgi, but just for this book, yoongi has to be dominant and mean, (except to hoseok) but he'll be soft for him later on, don't worry.

ah i love top!yoongi and bottom!namjoon, like namgi is the hottest ship ever. anyway thank you for reading this trash and have a nice day.

me to namjoon: are you trying to convince me that you're not a bottom or yourself? 🤔

thank you for reading and have a nice day <3