You Drown Me (BEN Drowned x Reader)

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

I sat there, on the floor, hugging my knees to my chest as I thought about what happened yesterday. A tear streamed down my face as I recalled his smirk, his crimson orbs filled with pure insanity, beating me up until he suddenly stopped. I could've sworn I saw his expression show worry for a half second, but I didn't care at the moment. The only thing I wanted was to get away from him. From that monster I had learned to hate.

I hugged my knees tighter as I heard a knock on the door, afraid of what BEN would do this time. I whimpered and hid my face between my chest and knees, wanting to be away from him as much as I could.

The door opened and I heard the loud 'thuds' of his boots whenever he walked. I could feel his eyes staring at me, making me uncomfortable and even more scared than I was a minute ago.

"[Name]?" His tone seemed concerned, which surprised me. Why would he be concerned?

"[Name]?" He repeated, a bit more stern than last time.

Again, his tone was concerned, hurt evident in his voice too. But why would he be concerned? Why would he be hurt? The monster BEN seemed was a sadistic, evil monster. He would never care for the people he tortures. So why was he hurt? Maybe because I was ignoring him? That wouldn't be it. He couldn't care less if his victims were ignoring him, I know that from experience.

He sighed, knowing there wasn't going to be an answer. I could hear boots stepping softly on the carpet, but it wasn't getting fainter, it was getting louder. I lifted my head slightly to see BEN making his way over to me. I whimpered, wanting to be away from him as much as I could. Of course, BEN didn't notice or ignored it, crouching in front of me with a frown wrapped on his face.

"[Name]..." He trailed off, reaching a hand towards me. I got scared and scooted back. Last time he did this, he grabbed me and threw me to the other side of the room. Why wouldn't I be scared of that? I whimpered even louder, afraid of what he might do this time.

When I scooted back, his face showed hurt and concern. His hand reached towards me and caressed my cheek softly,

"[Name]... I..."

He looked away from me, as if having a fight on his head trying to make out the right words to tell me.

"[Name], I've been having this weird feeling. When you tried to get away from me, this feeling hit me like a truck. I've been feeling this when I play video games and eat and do other stuff alone." He paused, letting me take all the words in, "I don't know what this feeling is, so I just took my anger on you. I-I... didn't know what it was, but I knew I couldn't hurt you. You're the only one I have right now. I'm sorry."

He quickly wrapped his arms around me, hugging me tight, but not enough to suffocate me. He started saying 'I'm sorry' several times. As I stood there in his arms, I knew this was because I ignored him.

"I'm s-sorry [Name]... I'm so sorry..."

Feeling a bit awkward, I began patting and rubbing his back to calm him down. I don't know why, but I felt pity for him. What? Why would I pity him? He's the monster who ruined my life! I sighed, confused about the whole situation.

"I'm sorry [Name]..."

(A/N: Sorry for not updating! I'm suffering writer's block so I will update randomly. But don't fear! I am NOT planning to abandon this story, I just need ideas. Love you all 😘)