𝑿𝑿𝑿 𝑰𝑴𝑨𝑮𝑰𝑵𝑬𝑺 ❤︎

𝐀𝐥𝗼𝐧𝐞 𝐏𝐭.𝟭

Sola

                               Sola POV

Right now it was 3AM.

I was currently crying.

I feel so worthless, and I feel like everything is my fault.

My mom got mad at me today over the smallest thing.

Our family really wanted to get seafood today, and I'm allergic to it.

My mom started yelling to me about how "it's my fault" and "why did I have to get a child who's allergic to seafood".

And it is my fault.

But I'm not crying at that.

I have depression too.

Ever since I've had it, I get sensitive over the littlest things.

But my whole family just dislikes me.

They say "I hate you" almost every day, and if not, every other day.

I couldn't even blame them.

I hate myself.

I went to the bathroom grabbing my razor blade.

Should I do more than slit my wrist.

I looked in the cabinet seeing a lot of pull bottles.

He voices in my head were telling me to do it.

"Just do it".

"Nobody would care".

"Everything would be Back to normal".

"They don't love you anyway".

More tears started coming.

I blew out a deep breath.

I decided to call my  boyfriend jahseh.

He doesn't know that I fell back into depression.

He was the only one there for me when it was happening.

I have been acting different around him though.

I'd barely talk, and if we did talk, I would respond dryly just to end the conversation.

He would ask me if I was okay, and I would try my best to just be more happy so that he wouldn't suspect anything.