Brainstorm by Rhizome Olivia Quondam

Five Years

I used to be well-versed on us, but now I'm forgetful

I can't remember at all how I felt for you

Your touch wasn't enough

Your kisses fell short

It's all a blur to me

I talked senselessly to you

I lied to myself about you

We didn't burn as our time together froze

You did nothing for me

I don't know why I went with you that night

I didn't get what I wanted

I never quite understood what I wanted from you

It's all relative

You never did want to talk about our indiscretions years before

Our flirtations that went nowhere until recently

Then we stopped once more

You prevented us from progressing

My professions only got your ego off

You couldn't look me in my eyes

This was all nonsense

Our wet paint has finally dried

I should thank you for cutting me off though

You weren't worthy and you still aren't