Can i buy you a book?

Chapter 6 - Letting him in but why?

He chuckled.

“Not use to affection I see.” He said looking amused for god knows what.

“Of course I am not. I haven’t seen my family for the past 4 years straight. And my friends are always too busy with their life. Why else do you think I read so many books? Because they are my best friend. I can always get lost in that world. But then it hurts too. Why? Cause when the book ends I am brought back to face reality. No I am not emo. I love my life. It’s just that sometimes I feel lonely. I feel like I came to this world alone and I will die alone but then everyone dies alone they don’t actually drag someone in with them. I-“I kept on blabbing.

He was staring at me all the time I was blabbing; starting from friends to family to every other different thing that I can rant about. I never complained about anything. Because I thought complaining would make me look ungrateful. But I am grateful. At one point about an hour later probably. I stopped. I realized I was blabbing

“Wow one hour of conversation. Not exactly conversation if I nodding my head count.” He said still with this smile. Oh just stop smiling will you.

What happened to building a wall up so high? Err u idiot. How can you let him in so easily? It hasn’t even been one day. Don’t you dare repeat your mistake. No, don’t. I looked through the dirty window. The rain has stopped. I should leave.

I did as I thought.

“Now you are creeping me. Are you possessed?” he said laughing at his own joke. I rolled my eyes.

“The rain stopped. I need to be home. I have got work to do.” I said not even turning around. I was friendly, yes but I didn’t usually let people in. I never tell them much about my life yet about my whole day just the part where everything is right. I talk a lot too. I also move my hand a lot while I talk. See what I am talking about? I am already talking to myself about how I behave. I think I should see a doctor.

“So this is it? You talk about how you feel about rabbits and how you think Alice in the wonderland the cartoon version is nice and that a carrot is good for health and that every obese person should take care of their weight and that you should start dieting cause you are growing fats and that your sister has very cute cheeks and –“he couldn’t finish before I interrupted.

“I actually told you all that?” I asked, now I am also forgetting what I say. Great, next what I am going to ask him what is my name and he would turn into those pervert manwhore and tell me I am his wife. But then I was only 22. I am at the last semester of my Collage. That is not even possible. But then there is early marriage and stuff but then again why would he even want to marry me I mean I am not that pretty and before I could think more he answered.

“Yes, it’s funny you know. You talk like you are in a dream. One moment this and the next that. You don’t have a specific topic and what is more amusing is that you don’t even realize what you are saying and to whom you are telling what. You just keep talking like its normal.” He gave me this dazzling smile. Stop smiling urrgghhh.

“So you think I am weird now?” I asked a bit annoyed. Fine I accept I talk a lot but what does he mean by not normal. I am an alien?

“No, I like you.” With that he walked toward the door and opened it which I have been trying to do for a while but was stuck in this weird convo.

So he said he likes me. What am I suppose to say? I like you back. But then what exact way does he like me? I am not even sure whether he likes me or likes likes me or loves me. Wait that’s stupid he can’t love me. We just met. So same goes for like likes me. Shit I am talking like a ten years old now. I should stop talking to Ashley. Dayyum.

I walked out following close behind him.

“Do you want me to drop you home?” he asked ever so politely. But I need to refuse him. This was getting too far. What if he was a killer?

“No thanks. I will walk home, alone. Need some time to me.” I said trying to be as polite as possible. Usually I wouldn’t mind but this guy specifically made me feel this weird kind of thing.

“I thought you said you felt lonely and needed accompany” He said still smiling.

“At times, but right now I would like to be alone.” I smiled. But I think I looked like some creep. Why is it so hard to behave nice with him? Maybe it’s his smile or maybe I feel insecure about my looks with him because he is good looking. Or maybe he bought me a book and we have been bonding too much already.

I started walking away. More like jogging. I didn’t even look back. I was too scared he would ask for my number. I kept walking till I reached home. When I reached home I collapsed on my bed.

This was one heck of a day but what I still didn’t get is why do I trust him so much to tell him about my family? Ok, maybe I didn’t tell much but I did and I am pretty sure while blabbing I let out more. I should stop talking so much.