After their meeting yesterday, Hünkar was more calmed, although she clearly wanted to ask Demir about the false witnesses. And she wanted to confront him for distorting his father's murder case. But she chose not to confront him, for now.
Today Hünkar came downstairs much earlier than normal, but she realized Demir was already downstairs. They greeted each other and talked for a while, while they waited for Züleyha and Adnan to come down so they could have breakfast together. Haminne was also waiting next to them.
After a while, everyone was having breakfast and Demir told her mother about his plan for the day.
[starts to tell her.]
Demir: Anne, today I am going to take Züleyha and Adnan to a picnic.
Hünkar: [smiles.] How nice! So, when are you guys going?
Demir: After 12 pm, I will come and pick them up.
Hünkar: That sounds good. And when will you return then?
Demir: I don't know I was thinking to take the day off. You know, spending the night somewhere else.
Hünkar: Oh, I see!
Demir: Do you mind?
Hünkar: Of course not, why should I? I am glad you are making time for them too. Enjoy yourselves!
Demir: Thank you anne.
[everyone left for their own things to do.]
At 12pm, as already decided, Demir came home to pick up Züleyha and Adnan. The three said goodbye to Hünkar and she wished them a nice day and gave them her blessing. Now, she was almost alone and with nothing to do. So she sat in the living room and talked to Haminne.
And suddenly, as she was playing with her, an idea came to her mind. Why not meeting with Fekeli again?
But she was rather waiting for him to call her so they could meet. Well, because she knew that yesterday she left things incomplete and he will try his best to know what happened and try to get to the remaining things.
Just as she had thought, after a while, he called her. She knew it was him, so she was quick to reply.
[She picked up the phone.]
Hünkar: Merhaba!
Ali Rahmet: Merhaba Yaman Hanim. How are you doing?
Hünkar: I am doing good, how about you?
Ali Rahmet: I am good too.
Hünkar: Glad to know!
Ali Rahmet: So you might be wondering, why I am calling?
Hünkar: Exactly. [smiles knowing what's coming.]
Ali Rahmet: I was thinking that..we can have coffee again?
Hünkar: You want us to meet, right?
Ali Rahmet: Yes, that's what I meant. [laughs.]
Hünkar: Well, I don't mind.
Ali Rahmet: Then, you know the address. See you there!
Hünkar: See you too.
[hangs up.]
She got dressed, told Saniye that she was going to go out and take care of everything while she returned, then she sat in the car and Raci took her to the spot they had agreed with. There they meet with a smile and their hearts are more than happy.
[He stands up and extends his hand.]
Ali Rahmet: Hoş geldin!
Hünkar: Hoş büldük. [completes the handshake.]
Ali Rahmet: [hands her some coffee.] Affiyet olsun.
Hünkar: Sağol! [takes a sip.]
Ali Rahmet: Thank you for accepting to meet.
Hünkar: You are welcome. Why wouldn't I accept?
Ali Rahmet: I don't know maybe your son wouldn't like it.
Hünkar: Ahh, Demir! He doesn't tell me what to do and besides, he took his family out of the town today.
Ali Rahmet: I understand. [pauses.]
I really wanted to meet so we can talk, you know, clear some misconceptions. Things that happened and none of us ever got the chance to explain anything.
Hünkar: Well, what are those things?
Ali Rahmet: 40 years ago, you married Adnan Yaman in the old mansion. I remember how beautiful everything was that day. The flowers, the decorated tables, the lights, everything seemed like a fairy tale. [gets interrupted by her.]
Hünkar: [asks confused.] How do you know? Were you there?
Ali Rahmet: Yes. I stared from a distance until I couldn't take it anymore. You didn't seem to be happy, although everyone said you were. That night I cried for you, for all that we were and for what we would never be again, ever.
[asks her.] Were you happy on your wedding day?
Hünkar: The "happiness" they noticed was not my happiness. That happiness was for my parents, for having married Adnan Yaman, with the man they had chosen for me. [stops and looks at him.] If things were different, we would not be here. And you know it very well.
Ali Rahmet: Yes I know.
Hünkar: Do you hate me for that?
Ali Rahmet: I certainly don't. I am at blame, if only I was quick enough and brave enough, everything would have been so different.
[both stare at each other in an awkward silence.]
Ali Rahmet: Can I ask you something?
Hünkar: Go on.
Ali Rahmet: Were you happy with Adnan, as your husband?
Hünkar: What you want to prove by asking that? [looks at him while raising her eyebrow.]
Ali Rahmet: I mean, you don't need to answer that.
Hünkar: I will answer. [looks around, looks at him, takes a moment to think,takes a deep breath and says.] I was not happy with that marriage. But I forced myself to accept him as a husband, because there was no going back. What was done, was done!
I never loved him but he was my husband, so I tried to get along with him. But I didn't know how bad Adnan was. I found out that he didn't marry me because he wanted to, it was for other reasons. He did not treat me well, I saw him very little, we did not share time, he did not even speak to me, he used to yell at me and raise his hand too. But still, I tried the best to maintain a healthy relationship with him, because I had no other choice. He was my husband now, this was my destiny and I had to accept it. I was strong enough to bear everything but sometimes I thought I could escape and many times I tried. But then I found out about my pregnancy and after that, it was impossible for me to escape from that hell.
Ali Rahmet: Was it a hell? Was he that bad?
Hünkar: [laughs sarcastically.] It was even worse than that. And he was more evil than anyone can imagine.
[makes a pause.]
The rooms for me were dark, they were cruel. That bed, in that hell, I witnessed martyrdom, in those sheets there were traces of tears and wounds, those four walls enclosed the worst memory, they echoed screams of pain and so many things that just remembering by them my heart shudders. I hated going in there every night, my throat was knotted, as if I was entering the coldest and most desolate forest you can imagine. It was as if my feet knew it, that place was not a room, it was a dungeon.
Ali Rahmet: Then why didn't you ran away? [asks her politely.]
Hünkar: How could I? I was expecting a baby. Even if I wanted to, I couldn't. The baby is not to blame for anything, so I couldn't risk it, because by doing so, I was risking my baby's life. And after Demir came into my life, everything was different. He became my world, everything revolved around him, it was my adoration.
Well, and you know, once you're a mother, you do everything you can to make your son have everything, to make him happy, to prosper, and I didn't want to take away Adnan's right to be a father. I thought that he, being a father, would change a little. None of that sort happened!
Ali Rahmet: [gets teary eyed.] Hünkar, you don't know how sorry I am. All this would have been different, it was my fault. I admire you for being such a brave woman and an amazing mother. I am sorry I couldn't got the opportunity to know this. If I had known this, I would have never let you suffer that much!
[look at her and holds her hand.]
As you see, sometimes fate tests us so we know it exists.
Hünkar: And sometimes love puts you on the wrong path so you know how much it hurts. [exhales.]
But at the end of the road you will discover that only two things change your life: love, because it improves it, and death, because it ends it.
Ali Rahmet: Everything can change in anytime, it only requires to be patient enough and have faith. [smiles at her.] Life always gives us new opportunities to be happy, just wait for it. [they both shared a smile.]
After a while, they finished their meeting. And each one took their way home. But they said goodbye happy, today both were able to finish clarifying many things. They learned things that perhaps they never thought to talk about, but they did and nothing satisfied them more than that.
At home, Hünkar was alone in her room and she remembered every moment they shared together today. For the first time in years, she confessed the story of her marriage. She talked to the right person, to the man who deserved to know the truth about her relationship with Adnan Yaman. She was honest and spoke without filters, said many things that she used to reserve. As with him, she feels safe, confident and calm, she feels good about being herself and being able to express herself when she is around.
Once again, her heart told her that there is still time and that it is never too late to beat for someone again.
And she thought to her herself, that after so many years she talked about, THE DAY I GAVE UP EVERYTHING. And hoped for the day happiness will knock her door once again.
