My little out bursts. Feeling. Thoughts. Memories.

Oh my baby gurl! Your leaving i feel it coming.

Oh my lil darling, how could I ever say goodbye. There is no easy way of saying it. At least your still mine at the moment, but I know by Christmas you'll be officially not my pony! But I know the family loves you so dearly already! Thank god I know who your are going too! Thank god I will see you every week at pony club! Thank god I will see how far you take this wonderful little girl who is just like me three years ago! 10 years old and a little blonde girl! You and I have matured soooo much! You grew from being a naughty cheeky little 7 year kai pony, into a matured lazy sleepy basically bomb proof 10 year old pony! Me on the other hand changed from a ten year old innocent beginner that knew nothing had no confidence and you have taken me to a 13 year old matured not so innocent (HAHA) confident intermediate rider! Haha I mean you taught me how to jump! Man this isn't even my good bye post for you yet, but I feel as if its coming soon and it's all happening so fast! Now I know you will be looked after and I know you will be a perfect pony! And I know they will treat you with love as they already do! You get like 20 apples and carrots a day 🍎🍏🍎 you will always be my lil perfect pony! You will always be my bitch of a pony when you have your shitty days! You will always be my first pony! You will be the only pony I fully have my heart too! You will always be the one I shared so many memories highs and lows with! And you will always be my councillor! You were there to listen 24/7 you were there for me to let stress go and go for a gallop or a jump! You always made me laugh and smile! But you also knew how to test my nerves fuck me off and get me into tears! But let's face it that's why I loved you! That's why I still love you! That's why I will love you forever and ever! No matter where you end up I will always think of you everyday without fail! Yes correct you didn't have the show qualities like Id like to have in a horse yes you were a bitch to ride most times. Yea you made me loose all confidence but taught me so much! Yes you pig bucked like there was tomorrow but all and all I loved you and all your quirks! No matter what anyone said we always proved them wrong! Whether it was my mum or dad, pony club instructors, and nearly every person I turned to for help, no one truly fully believed in you except for me! And HUNNY Id do it all again just to have another year with you! But when the time comes I will accept it and hand your reins over. Only because I know it's for the best for both of us! You hated being schooled in the arena everyday! Well my darling you don't have to be now! It's pony club and bareback and fun for you for the rest of your life maybe the odd ribbon day! But you loved getting ribbon around your beautiful brown neck so that's okay! And you and I both know it's the best for me, I need to take my riding courier as far as I can, and I will never ever say you held me back! You only taught me everything I know! If I couldn't ride a difficult pony I wouldn't find it so easy to ride a trained horse! So thank you! And yes I'll admit we had many people help us over our memorable three years! And yes I wouldn't have been able to do any of it without them! But omg I don't think anyone I mean anyone has had such a memorable unforgettable roller coaster of a ride with any of their first ponies! I mean for goodness sakes I trust you with my life! I trusted you to even train beginners on you! I don't think many riders can say they ever did that with their pony! Bloody hell I love you pony! You were one tuff nut to crack but when I did man we were unstoppable, unbreakable the duo that everyone will remember! Everyone can spend their whole life trying to find the "perfect pony" but really is that even possible no! But dam amber you were my perfect pony! And I knew it when I first meet you, you strutted on up to me ignored my hand with the carrots and licked my entire face! I will never forget that! How could I? Now my true and one love, my wee sweet lil mare and my first pony I love you with all of my heart every limb in my body and every blood cell I have. I want to say thank you. Thank you for being exactly what I needed the past three years, you were my answer to everything I have needed in life!