Being Mahogany LOXs little sister

At the hospital.

Jades p.o.v

It had been about 30 minutes ...

S... Since we got to the hospital Cameron was rushed in to a  room  to be treated we haven't herd anything.

Ca...Cameron was shot.

One of the men where dead.

We where all waiting outside the room he was in room 10 the same room mahogany was in 10 is my unlucky number.

"Nash its okay"mahogany says

Nash was shaking in fear nash stabed the man  to death that shot Cameron.

"I am gonna be put behind bars for this"he says

"Nash it was one of us or him" Matt says

"I know bu..." Nash was intruped by the doctor steping out of the room.

"Well" tay says

"I am really sorry c..Cameron Dallas is dead"he says looking down

"What"I say thinking it was a joke

"He's gone miss Gordy I am so sorry for your loss"he says

"No this has to be a joke he can't be gone"I say staring to cry.

I look beside me every one else was starting to cry mahogany was in tears.

"No no no no fuck this fuck it all this is a fucking joke" I scream

"Please miss Gordy! I will give you a minute you can go in and see him if you want". He says and walks away

I stand up and walk in every one follows me.

I stop and the foot of the bed tears steaming down my face I went over and held his hand he was still warm.

Every one was in tears and then a minute later they all left leveing me alone with him.

"I am so sorry " I  whisper

"I love you so much and I never got a chance to tell you how I really felt".I say

"You shouldn't have risked your life for me I am  a worthless nothing it should have been me he should of stabed me or shot me not you its all my falut you are worth far more than I am. I am so sorry"I say

"I would do anything for this just to be a bad dream or a joke. B...but its not"I say bursting into tears again.

5 hours later
At the Gordy's house

It was all my falut ,it was all my fault sould have been me.

I kept telling my self over and over.

Then it come to me I can't live anymore I am going to take my life because that's how it should have been in the first place.

That's it I can't take this I am going to do it ...

I am going to kill myself.

So I grabbed a pen and paper and wrote on it to my sister.

Dear mahogany
I am so sorry it had to be this way but I really can't live like this I can't live with regret knowing it was my falut that Cameron is dead I am so sorry for everything I have ever done to make you sad I am sorry that time I broke your curling wand and I am sorry for the time I peed on your teddy bear when I was 3
Haha remember.
But also remember the good times we have shared tell mom ,dad and sky that I love them so much I am so sorry for everything mahogany I love you with all my heart I am sorry i have to leave you this way by the time you read this I will be in hevan with Cameron I am going to comit sueaside
Goodbye mahogany xxx
Love jade

I left it on my bed  I then climed out my window and ran down the drive way I ran to the park near my house that's  beside the river.

I stepped closer to the edge.

"Wow okay well I guess this is it"I say to my self

I leand over a bit and closed my eyes I was about to jump when someone grabes me and pulled me back away from the edge.