Really Broken? (Adam Lambert)

Maybe it gets better

"N-no Adam it isn't quite your chest... " For now i didn't want Adam to be disappointed so i just had to answer his questions without saying too much.

"It's you-r "   *DAMN I CAN'T SAY THAT, IT'S SO TRAUMATIZING*

"it's your lower parts" I continued.

Adam's POV:

What did she meant by lower parts? My private parts?

" You mean my low private parts?"                  She nodded, but like why was she scared? Maybe she wasn't educated on it or i have no idea, i know it's hard for her but she needs to speak out.

"Kae why are you scared of that part? I do not understand...."

By this time Javi gave me a soft smile and left the room maybe to make Kae feel more comfortable with me...

End of the POV

OH MY GOD JAVI WAS LEAVING THE ROOM, i started trembling so bad and felt nauseous, i didnt want Javi to leave  me alone with Adam, i mean maybe they can both hurt me if they are both in the same room but at the same time it was like if Adam tried to hurt me Javi would stop him... Wow i do not know how i could think Adam would hurt me... but i can't even think in being in the same room alone with a guy

But i really have my reasons to think that though, Adam is such an icon to follow, but i know the Adam Lambert every glambert knows but i don't know his personal side, the side his friends see, thats why i was scared.

"Javi! Please don't go, please I don't want to be alone."

"Kae Adam is gonna be here for you, i would never leave you but i feel like you are more comfortable with Adam alone and you known him longer than you know me so this is gonna be easier" Javi stated

I nodded and he exit the room, then Adam help me get up from the bathtub but DAMN does he keep forgetting?

"OUCH!" I yelled in pain he was helping me get out by holding my hand but he placed his other hand near my wrist and he was pulling me out, it hurted as hell, but i soon looked apart and stood up, i didn't want any more questions NO

"Are you ok—" Adam said as I interrupted
"YES ADAM I AM, don't worry " I said, but I was dying inside, i took a deep breath and tried to hide the pain.

"OMG, I'm sorry honey, I forgot about it." He gave me a worried look, but he smiled at the same time.

"Adam could you please leave me for a second" I said

"Umm" He said as he look around the room, maybe for a sharp thing I could use to harm myself? He opened his mouth to say something but he didn't look sure about it so i spoke.

"Adam it's fine i'll just wash my wrist, really" Of course I wasn't gonna hurt myself again now because he would notice right away.

"Okay Kae just make sure not to do it, we care about you" Adam said as he exit the room, closing the door.

I started washing my sleeve and then my wrist, the water hurted so bad in the wounds , i took a very long breath and started realizing that maybe they both cared about me, and that maybe it gets better, I mean i have a huge phobia to guys, i do have my reasons, but they just look different, they won't hurt me...

I finished with my sleeve and i came back at the guest room where i heard Adam and Javi talking.

"Baby I know this is gonna be hard but we know that we wanna help her"

"We need for her to trust in us and we both wanna know what's happening"

"Okay Javi you are so innocent baby listen... she is hurting herself, that's why the blood on the sleeve, and she has trust issues as we see it, and we don't know what happened in her life, we know it's bad by the few things she has spoken about"

They were both saying this and continuing but i didn't want to listen more, i didn't want to listen if they said bad stuff about me.. I know I'm weak. Okay here i go.

"Hey guys, I'm okay now" I said entering the room making sure to cover my wrist, They both stopped talking and gave a smile.

"Honey are you sure? Let me see your wrist Kae" Adam said

"Adam I'm sure i am okay" I grabbed my wrist and i gave a sad smile and gave a no with my head, as a sign that i wouldnt show my disgusting scars to my idol.

"Honey i wanna see how bad it--"

"Um Adam she will, when she feels comfortable with us" Javi said saving me

Adam gave a soft smile to him.

"Adam... Javi um i wanted to say, thank you"

Adam patted his hand on the bed so i would sit next to him, as i did, i sat at the opposite corner of the bed, but he came closer and closer to me, i closed my eyes and as soon as i opened them he was just a few inches from me i panicked but i wanted to get better so i just covered my stomach with my hands and arms.

"Honey i'll put my hand on your shoulder okay?" I nodded and he placed his hand as he said. He then softly passed his hand to my head and he leaned my head on his shoulder, it was so comfortable to think he cared about me, he was much taller than me but he placed his head in mine so my neck would be reachable to his shoulder. Meanwhile Javi received a call.

"Guys i'll go to the living room, this call is very important." He clearly looked worried and Adam said:

"Sure baby don't worry" Javi soon went downstairs almost shouting to the phone.

"Adam is Javi okay?"

"Yes Kae don't worry! I don't really know what's happening but I'm sure he will." He affirmed

"Okay, I hope he will. " I Smiled at him.

"Wanna know something honey?" Adam said, I let a *mhm* come out of my mouth and he softly said *okay, listen*

"Javi and I care about you, I know you really have trust issues but I'm here for you as well Javi. We don't really know what's going on with you Kae or neither why you hurt yourself, and i know you wouldn't like to talk about it in this moments but i want you to know that i'll always be here for you.... always, the few days you've stayed here i've seen Javi wakes up much early just to make both of us breakfast and it breaks his heart when you say you are done and you've only eat like one fourth of the food or don't even touch it because you don't like it. Dont worry honey i know you really appreciate, but i would like for you to start trusting in us" Adam said as he gave me a soft smile.

"Adam those words were beautiful, thank you so much, that meant a lot, and i really appreciate Javi's effort too"For the first time in a while i gave a big smile to him but it soon fade when i heard Javi shouting at the living room.

A/N: Hey guys! sorry for not updating in a while :( but i'm here now!! I'm on summer vacations now so i'll be more active ;) if you have any suggestions for this story please let me know and i'll try to fit it in one of my next chapters :)