Javi left a while ago.... I don't wanna be so close to Adam. I know. Stupid right? But I mean, he is my idol and the sweetest person ever, and no one can change my mind. But. I can't trust anyone without actually opening to them, and I never open to anyone so I never trust anyone. Hard right? I am truly trying my best but it's just so bad I just can't. I've been flinching every time Adam calls my name or touches me or some noise is made. I hugged Javi! Wow I actually never hugged someone like that since like 5 years ago, and it felt relieving. I actually made a huge progress but being alone with Adam isn't helping.
"Kae how is it going up there?" Wtf does he mean up there?!
"Yo-you mean? Me-an what?" I was so confused in his question. We where both in the living room and I was staring at the wallpaper and he was on some call with Javi but when he ended he just randomly asks that and I wasn't even prepared for a question. Like what does he mean?
"I mean up in your heady" Heady? Really? God I love him. What would I say? Umm yeah so I am so afraid to be around you and any other man and any noise in the house scares me so bad, thank you, NO right?
"Oh— it's fine" I smiled. REALLY KIARA?? I needed help but wow I am just so stupid. But those where the words that came from my mouth...
"I'll always be here for you honey, I care about you and I would never hurt" Wow Adam did really mean it.. I just feel so safe with him I can't lie to him anymore. I am a good liar but not with people I care about
"Adam, I-" okay it is time to finally say an official sorry for what I made him see and the wasted time invested in me
"Yes sweetie?" He said and I smiled and that word didn't bothered me anymore because his voice was so comforting
"I am really sorry you had to see back in the bathtub... I didn't meant to do it... I really didn't but my head won. And I am scared of you and Javi most of the time and I am trying my best. I am sorry" I gave a really regretful look that was so truly that he nodded and smiled.
"Kae you don't even have to be sorry, you really don't, you are so brave for letting us in your life without actually knowing our nonsocial life. I am so proud of you" Adam said. Wait... he was proud of... me? My eyes became watery and for the first time in my life that I remember... someone was proud of me. That's a huge improvement for me. In that moment I was proud of myself too because Adam was proud of me... my idol was proud of me. I was smiling like an idiot then
"That means a lot Adam" I gave him a real smile. No fake smile
"Hey! Your smile is so cute!" Adam said. Omg someone complimented me this is just an amazing day.
"Aww thank you so much" I said. "You know when I watched interviews about your new album dropping and about what the album was about... you seemed very happy and I felt so happy for you when I saw you on the screen of my phone." Wow I can't believe I am actually telling Adam this in real life. "Things went bad at home and you would always help me during tough times and thank you for that" he gaves me a big smile and an aww face. He is just so sweet
"I mean... your smile wins this! Yours is so cute!" I said laughing a bit. His laughing is so cute
"Can I- ... hug you Adam?" I said, I did it?!
"What?" His eyes widen "Yes! Wow sure!" He was so shocked and I think it was gonna be worth it... It is gonna be worth it... All of these years fighting for myself I could finally see it was gonna be okay. As long as I was safe with Adam and Javi.
I went in for the hug and he was the best hugger ever. He let my head rest on his shoulder and he said "I am so proud of you Kae" and I said "I love you, thank you"
I am so proud of myself... two hugs in like a week? That's a record. I feel so good and happy and for the first time I don't feel like hurting myself at night. That is amazing.I still have my doubts about the new home but it's gonna be worth it to change, right?
Night came and I went to the room I was staying in because I didn't want to be on top of him all the day, but besides I don't fully trust yet. We went to a store and he bought me a phone. I couldn't believe he was doing this, he is just so amazing. I thanked him for like a million times and he was happy about it... He made me promise I would text him when he was shopping or something if I ever felt like hurting myself, so he could do something about it. I was so happy
A/N: GUYS! how are you?! I am so proud of Kae!! :,) she finally crossed barriers! Wow! I am loving where the story is going :) Don't forget I love you all! sorry for the short chapter btw :(
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Really Broken? (Adam Lambert)
FanfictionKiara is a teenager that has been in so much trouble on her family, she's broken, scared, she has scars and her life is hard, but there's one thing that kept her with hope it's name was Adam Lambert her idol... and who would say that he will be some...
