The Unloved One

Chapter 18

Jessica's P.O.V

The funeral took place a week after my dad died it has been a month since it happened .Nathan has been nicer to me ever since. I still couldn't get over the fact my dad was gone. The memory of when he died burned into my mind.

Why? I thought myself. Why did this have to happen? At the funeral I saw Danny my childhood bestfriend . Danny had dirty blond hair and greenish eyes and was taller than me.We're like brother and sister he's been there for me through so many times. I decided to send him a letter. We always used to send each other letters as kids.He called me shorty, I called him Danners. I missed those times. I starting writing and this is what I wrote:

To:Danny Mendez

From:Jessica Colton

Dear Danners,
I miss you.I want to see you again, Danny.You're like the brother I wanted but never had. Hopefully I'll see you soon so we could do crazy stuff and have fun like we used to. I miss those days when I had friends because now I'm all alone. Well I'm not alone but I feel alone.Danny I really feel like I'm getting bad again, Danny. I feel so depressed, I cry myself to sleep again. I wake up screaming and crying from the nightmares I have.And when all the memories come back, I cry.Sometimes I think about how life would be without me. I think and think and then I cry.I'm just tired of feeling this way. I hate having to fake a smile on my face when all I wanna do is cry. I never tell anyone how I feel because I'm scared they'll think I'm just seeking attention like when we were younger. I've been getting those letters again.They say the same thing they've always said. The sad thing is they're true. What if it is my fault Natalie isn't here today? Danny, I'm sorry if I ever hurt you because maybe i am the mistake that wasn't supposed to exist.

-love,
Jessica❤