☀︎︎𝔻𝕚𝕗𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕦𝕝𝕥☀︎︎ - 𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗸 𝗮𝘂𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻 𝗶𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗲

Chapter 9

jenna's pov

i can hear loads of screaming and shouting outside. it's actually quite terrifying. all of a sudden the shouting stops and the door slams open. my mom and mia bust in and snap their heads towards me. they run over and my mom grabs me by the arm. i tried to fight her off but she pulled me off of my chair and towards the door. i start to cry because i don't want to go back anymore. i love the people at this house because they respect me and make me happy. suddenly a messy nick runs in and blocks the door. he has leaves all in his hair and thorns sticking out of his jumper.

j- NICK WTF HAPPENED TO YOU?
n- they pushed me in the bush but i'm fine
j- no your not wtf why would you do that mia?
n- it was your mom, get the hell off of jenna you weirdos, she wants to be here not with you
j- please just let me stay mia, mom.
mi- no they aren't the right people to hang out with jenna and you can't ignore us forever
m- just come home we will give you a good life
j- i don't need you anymore

my moms grip loosened on my wrist and i pulled away from her and pushed them both out the door before slamming it on their faces. i look at poor nick trying to pull everything out of his jumper and i feel so so bad. this is all my fault. my eyes start to well up again and nick notices.

n- hey hey hey what's wrong?
j- nothing- i- i just hate seeing that you're hurt because of me🥺
n- their actions aren't your fault. they chose to do this not you jenna. please don't be upset.

i look nick in the eyes and turn to the stairs. i run up them and head into the washroom. i locked the door and looked in the mirror. i was a mess. i was ugly. i didn't deserve to be here hurting all these people. i look done and my wrist and pull up my sleeve. i deserved to hurt like i did when i did that to myself. i looked around for something i could use.

(TRIGGER WARNING⚠️)

i saw a razor blade in the cupboard and picked it up. i took a deep breath and cut into my arm. i heard everyone downstairs screaming for me and someone's banging on the washroom door. i continued to cut into my wrist until i heard the door banging get louder. i quickly threw the blade in the bin and pulled my sleeve down.

(TRIGGER OVER)

i slid down the wall and curled up on the floor. weeping to myself while i heard everyone at the door.

n- JENNA OPEN THIS DOOR

i buried my head into my hands, trying to block out all the noise. but it wasn't working. up until i heard a crash. i looked up to see the door had flung open and everyone was running in, tears flooding down their faces just like mine. nick and kouvr stood me up and i just fell into her arms.

k- what happened bebe? what's wrong?
n- kouvr let her cry. it's natural.
k- okay.

i cried into kouvr's shoulder for a good 5 minutes before picking myself up and just looking into everyone's eyes. they were all so full of pain. what was i causing these poor people?

j- i- i- i'm so so sorry for causing you all so much pain. i will leave tomorrow. i promise.
k- what no!! we don't want you to leave jenna
n- please don't leave🥺
a- we won't let her nick. she hasn't done anything wrong and jenna, you aren't causing us any pain, just stop causing yourself so much pain, please🥺
j- i just don't get why you won't let me. you clearly are hurting and before i came here everything was perfect for you all.
n- jenna please, we all love you so so much because of who you are. you make us laugh and smile, you make us happy.

i knew he was lying. i was clearly causing them all pain and i needed to leave. i ran out and locked myself in the bedroom. packing everything i hadn't taken out of the suitcases my mom packed. it was clear nobody actually wanted me here. i caused them so much pain and i have only been here for 3 days.
i packed the last few things and took out my phone. i entered my passcode and went to my flights app. i booked a flight to orlando. it was in three hours so i called an uber and headed out the door. i forgot everyone would be standing there. charli ran at me and just gave me a massive hug. i had to leave. i knew they loved me. but i just couldn't keep causing them pain.

j- charli let go, please
ch- charli just let her go.
c- but i want you to stay jenna🥺
j- i wish i could, but i can't keep hurting you all. look at nick. he has thorns in his jumper and leaves all in his hair because of me. i'm sorry, i just can't stay.
n- jenna stop please. you can't go🥺
j- i can and i need to, i love you all.

i pushed through the crowd and picked up my suitcase. i carried it down the stairs. it wasn't too heavy. i ran towards the front door and straight out of it. my uber was already here so i sat in.
(ud- uber driver)
ud- anyone else?
j- no.
ud- where to?
j- airport.
ud- okay.

he started to drive and i saw nick and avani in the door crying. i genuinely had so much love for everyone here but i really had to go. but as we drove off of the drive, i saw another uber pulling in.