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today
i decided that
i should be
honest

with you

so i told you
that i'm so happy
that your father
had called the
cops on mine

i told you
how much i
hated him

i told you
that after
my mother had
passed away

my father
started to
hurt me

and ruin
himself

as a person

i told you how
my little siblings
had never made it

my mom was
supposed to have
twins

but she had passed
away during the
delivery

which had caused
the babies to never
make it

i told you

that

my father
became an alcoholic

ever since he
got fired
from his job

he was too
hurt

to pay the bills

he never got
hired from
another company
after that

well

at least after
he got into
jail

i told you everything

i told you everything
i would tell no one
else

i even told you

what broke me
the most

that my father
said
he would kill me
if i disobeyed him

with zero regrets

i had mentioned
that my grades
went down
ever since my
mother's passing

i gave up on
everything
i gave up on
finding someone

even though there
were still many girls
back then

who would want me

i always rejected
them

why would i
love someone else

before loving me?

i wondered

the hypocrisy
really showed

but i was too
dumb to realize
that back then

so sometime
later

i wondered

why would anyone
want an embarrassing
person like me?

but you

you

you you you

you're everything
everything i would
want

but

why would a guy
like me

get someone like you?

i removed those
thoughts from
my head

pushing them far
back into
my brain

and i continued
telling you
my story

and how thankful
i am

i had told you
how happy i was
that you are
here

with me

listening to everything
i'm telling you

everything i wouldn't
be able to let out

to anyone else

i told you
that i don't want
you to go anywhere

so please stay with
me

i mouth to
myself

lucky you didn't
see or hear

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