美し世界 - utsukushi sekai (one shots)

How Long do I have to Keep this up?

Who the fuck even gives a shit about school. Not like it would get me anywhere in life.

All parents care about are grades....... Nothing but grades.

They wouldn't care about how much I'm suffering and how hard it is. The only reason I participated in the events was for you.
So that you could see that I was doing something by myself. Yet the only thing you said was

"Why aren't you the main lead."

Even though I worked so hard. Even though I participated in this worthless shit for no one but you that's all I get?! All I wanted was a simple good job nothing more.

I just want to go and die already.

Why do you always say "studying is your job." Are you trying to say that I'll never escape from the world and would have to work my ass off to survive in this world where I didn't want to ever exist in?!

Who should I even ask about what's right and what's wrong. Would you care if I disappeared somewhere?

"Love me. Love me. Love me.
I'll give you everthing I ever had. I'll throw it all away."

- aishite aishite aishite (vocaloid song)

I'm sorry for not ever knowing what to do.

Why did you ever give birth to me in this world.....?

Would you please tell me.

EveN iF I sOMeHow PuLLed iT ofF i WOUldn'T evER be wOrtH anYtHIng.

WHY IS IT THE ONLY THING YOU CARE ABOUT GRADES? WHY. PLEASE. I'M BEGGING YOU PLEASE ANSWER ME.

I'm sorry for being such a shitty child...

Adults feel like they could raise children to do whatever they want.

If the world's going to be a place like this then everyone should just disappear.....

How long do I have to keep this up?

A/N

Sorry for the late update (if anyone reads this lol) got busy with homewirk from school (frick you online classes).

Tbh I hate this chapter for some reason. I mean if I actually spent time on this and searched for material as reference this could have turned out way better.

Welp have this shitty chapter for now.

I love neru alot I've been listening to him eversince grade 1.