美し世界 - utsukushi sekai (one shots)

Just an Extra

"The red thread of fate doesn't exist."

Now that someone said it right in front of me I just realized how this was true. I used to be naive believing something like this actually existed.

Humans are quick to change, there is no way that something like this could be true. Why was I so childish back then?

Now that I had realized how it feels when someone doesn't except you. I thought that it was easy to change yourself for others. Of course something so stupid like that isn't possible...

Someone... Anyone... i dont mind whoever it is. I don't even know what I want you to do for me but please somehow, I don't how, but please take this disgusting feel revolving inside of me away! Please.... How selfish could I even be....?

I'm just an extra in this world. No one would care about someone as significant me suffering. I sure do like the word suffering huh? Something like this is utter exaggeration of the word suffering.

If I had a chance I would want to say sorry to every person who is seriously suffering. Trapped in solitude seeking the light which they would never get to see.

If the world is going to be a place like this then it would be better if everyone apart from me would disappear. Again this is just me being selfish. At this point if no one cares about me then who if I become selfish. Not like these greedy wishes of mine would come true.

I'll bleed into these ugly colors, and continue my life. I know I'm equivalent- no even lower than scum but I don't have the courage to possibly kill myself.

I sure was quick to give up wasnt I. What other choice do I have though. No one wants to see me work hard anyways huh. Then I'll become this disgusting, miserable cretaure that words can't express.

"Goodbye to the foolish me."

A/N

If I were to name this character then her name would be Minami.