In this world I have continued to believe that I have no worth. And that I have no shame.
I've hated myself and my body. Yet I kept it beautiful as it should be and resisted the urge to stab myself and say goodbye to the world.
I don't know how I got here in the first place.
I hate myself for feeling pleasure to this feeling.
But before I knew it I felt "happy" when I was "needed by someone. Even id they'd use me to satisfy their list and then throw me away.
Even if countless men touch me I wouldn't mind and would let out thousands of screams of pleasure.
I truly am the worst.
But I have decided. To continue to bleed into a thousand shades of red just like the red spider lilies until I have done what I need to.
Until then...
A/N
Aight have this crappy one shot. I was trying to write a story of an oiran? This legit took me 20 minutes to write. But I've been wanting to write on this topic for a long time even though I can't think of anything so I decided to force myself.
I'm sorry if this is way too bad
And I apologize for the late uploades I will be writing more now.
~Yui
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美し世界 - utsukushi sekai (one shots)
RandomI was inspired to right this story because of @Uni_SoraruMafumafu 's story called poem, quotes and other stuff I recommend you guys to read her stories and follow her. The title means "beautiful world" It may be completely irrelevant to the story ...
