The story we need to let go

19 desember 2019

Brianadithama

hai, Geasha! hari ini gue ulangtahun. just in case you forget haha.
gue tau lo nggak bakal ngasih gue kado, sama kayak beberapa tahun belakangan ini. so here i am made my own gift.

oh, sebelumnya, gue pengen bilang kalau gue minta maaf sebesar besarnya. maaf karena sebenernya, gue pernah ada di fase bosen dan nggak ngomong. justru malah bikin lo ngerasa sendiri. maaf, gue nyesel banget sampe detik ini. gue juga belum sempet bilang makasih untuk bertahun tahun yang lalu. kalo nggak ada lo, mungkin gue dan yang lain nggak akan bisa ada di posisi sekarang. januari nanti, kita mau rilis album baru. kebetulan ada satu lagu yang nggak akan kita masukin ke album. gue pengen, lo orang pertama yang mau denger lagunya. gue harap lo mau denger ya! please ((marah nih)) hahaha. have a nice day, Gea!

sincerely,
your old but gold man, Brian.

—
I got something to say, let's meet up
Now we sit silent, facing each other
I keep thinking in my head
Should I say this or not
Although I don't want to

I'd been holding on to you for so long
But now I must let go
There's nothing I can do for you
It's the only way to make you happy
So I let go

So you can smile someday
So you can be happy

I remember our good times
The days of laughter and fun
Memories ever so precious
Fill up inside me
Although I don't want to

I'd been holding on to you for so long
But now I must let go
There's nothing I can do for you
It's the only way to make you happy
So I let you go

Holding on to you
Will do you no good
I know, so I struggle to get you out
The times we had together, our dear memories
I let go,
So you can smile someday

The bright future we sought together
I know, I know we can no longer
Wish for a happy ending
Like the land hardens after the rain
Pain is only temporary, someday you will meet
Someone who can make you happier
That's the kind of love you deserve
I got to say good bye right now

I'd been holding on to you for so long
But now I must let go
There's nothing I can do for you
It's the only way to make you happy
So I let go

Holding on to you
Will do you no good
I know, so I struggle to get you out
The times we had together, our dear memories
I let go

So you can smile someday
—

Gea menutup layar laptopnya setelah mendengarkan sebuah file musik yang ia dapat. senyumannya mengembang bersamaan dengan memorinya yang berkeliaran di pikirannya.

Brian,
I would never forget our past, but I do forgive.
I do forgive and accept everything happened to us.

Brian,
If someday we meet again
I will smile to you brigther than before.
I will call your name louder than before.
I will tell everyone that you are special.
You are my special friend.

and always be.