Te Amo (GirlxGirl)

Planting The Seed (11)

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Chapter Ten

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                                     October 28th, 2011

                   'Dear Diary,

Personally I don't know why I started this off with "Dear Diary", its too cliché. Hell its been a while since I've written In you, welcome back? Nah just kidding you can't talk, can you?

Anyway I guess I should start by stating the obvious: I think i'm sinking back into bad habits. I used to think I had thick skin, that nothing could hurt me, but lately I felt like I have the thinnest skin possible. Hannah's words have sunk in and started to grow on me. I'm a loser, I guess that explains why I haven't had a friend since, hell, I don't even remember. I've been thinking about telling Koren about it, maybe she could help you know, but honestly who am I compared to Hannah. Its Koren's friend and she would never pick her over me. I'm the awkward girl who doesn't go to parties and until I met Koren, had never been kissed.

I'm starting to fall for her, imagine that, me, Keeley, falling for someone.

Love, the idea had always been, funny, repulsive to me but somehow, someway, its become... a welcoming idea. Call it teenage hormones will ya?

Do I love her? No, but i'm afraid that I will one day. Im going to leave this entry off here. I've got plans today that I don't want to be late for.

                     Until next time. Xoxo' ~Keeley

       I closed my diary, rolled over on my bed and hopped up. I then put my leather bound book back to its proper place, taped under my desk. I sat down on my bed and looked up at my ceiling pondering the events of today. I had an excellent practice and avoided the idiots from the cheer team , learned a few trick shots and even came close to dunking... with the help of my teammates of course.

     Its now 12:00pm and im running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Why u may ask? Its because time is winding down for our project so were getting together to hang out. By we're I mean Koren and I Im not sure where were going but im rushing anyway. Hair... wavy but alright, clothes... nice and sporty but also suitable for something more formal, shoes... converses all day.

I walked into the bathroom and brushed my teeth before facing the mirror to check my face. There was nothing to be addressed on that matter so I quickly wiped my face and dried it with a towel. As I finished with the last water droplets I noticed my cheeks looked a bit fatter, it was slight, but definitely fatter. I took a deep breath and tried to put the thought out of my mind so I turned away from the mirror. "Its all in your head Keeley, its all in your head..." I chanted as I stared at the light blue wallpaper in front of me.

Ok, I've got this just focus and everything will be fine. I let out a deep breath and returned to the mirror. "See everything is perfect." I whispered to myself and letting out the most fake smile I've ever seen. After that I made it a point to never check the mirror for more than 8 seconds. Walking out of the bathroom I grabbed my wallet from the hallway table. I never really got the idea of wearing purses, they're long and hurt your shoulders. Plus there easy to get snatched, seriously, unless your bionic like Mila Jonivich in Ultraviolet, the wallet is the way to go. Grabbing it I ran downstairs and into the kitchen.

My dad was sitting in there eating a bowl of Rice Krispies in a black bowl. He liked them because of the famous "Snap, Crackle and Pop" sounds. If you asked me, which im sure you didn't, it was one of the less weird things about him. He had the latest issue of some teen magazine in front of his face. According to him all news was just repeated at different times of the day and the really important stuff he would hear about at work anyway. Hearing the thump as I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge he turned towards me and smiled brightly. "What's up Kiddo?"