Have Faith In Me (Sequal to IHBNY and Trust) (Kellic)

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Kellin's POV

I groaned in my half-asleep state snuggled in closer to the warm body next to me. Vic rolled over a little and tightened his grip around me, as he too made the sounds of waking up. He nuzzled into my neck and kissed it lightly, making me smile. I opened my eyes and was greeted by his adoring ones.

"Sleep well?" he asked.

"Better than ever," I said, smiling at him. He kissed my forehead and released his grip on me, but still kept his arm draped around my waist.

Nothing sexual happened between us yesterday. After I told him that I wanted to get back together, we just spent the afternoon and night lying here in bed, not talking about anything too serious, actually not talking about much at all. We were both just so happy that we finally got back together that we just wanted to be in each other's company without having a serious talk about what was going to happen next. It was so good to be with him again. It was nice to have him holding me and kissing me. I cursed myself for pushing him away so much for so long. I admit, I was still a little scared about how this would turn out. I think most people are afraid of rejection but I took the chance and there's no going back now, and I don't think I want to go back to not having Vic. I had managed to convince myself that I was okay without him, but really I was miserable. I just realized now exactly how miserable I was because now that I have him back I know what true happiness is.

"I love waking up with you next to me," he said.

"I love it too," I said and grabbed one of his hands so I could lace my fingers with his. "I'm just sorry I made you wait and scared you."

"You don't have to apologize. I have you now and that's all that matters," he said, making me smile again. My smile dropped though when I remembered I still needed to talk to him about all the serious stuff. I wanted to get out of the way quickly.

"So, I guess we should talk....maybe?" I asked.

"About what exactly?" he asked, and I couldn't think of an exact thing.

"I don't know, us?" I questioned, hoping he'd say something other than acting dumb.

"A clean slate," he asked quickly.

"What?" I questioned. I sat up, pulling out of his arms and looked down at him. He sighed, sitting up too. He took my hand in his again.

"We've been through a lot and I just think it'd be good to give each other a clean slate. I don't want us worrying about past problems because they're in the past. I don't want us resenting each other for whatever we might done. I just want us to be happy and start over new without worrying about all that because we've been through our fair share of shit and it's about time we leave it behind us and move on," he suggested, and honestly I liked that idea a lot. Maybe I like it so much because I had a lot of stuff in the past two years that I'm not proud of, so I wanted to forget it, and I'm sure we both wanted to put the break up behind us and I don't feel hatred towards him anymore, so it'd be best to agree with him and move on.

"Yeah, I'd like that," I said, smiling at him. "But, we need to be honest with each other. That's always been our downfall. We hide things from each other because we're scared or so the other won't get hurt and that's got to stop because in the end we both end up hurt anyway."

That was true. Even back in high school he hid the truth about Beau and that caused a lot of trouble. I hid that Jenna was blackmailing me. Then when we broke up again because he kissed Beau, he should have told me that he wasn't happy with how I was acting in the relationship. Then when we got back together I should have told him about Craig so he didn't end up thinking I didn't want him sexually. Vic should have told me about dad's threat and he should have told me about Alex. We have honesty issues, but we both always seem to have good reasons for keeping things to ourselves.