Ain't it random

YOU

I'd like to see what a world without you would be,
To not think of you when I wake up,
To breath air and think I'm worth of the air I breath,
To chose clothes to wear without thinking about you and if you would like them,
I know you wouldn't even look twice at me anyways.
Rethink what I'm going to say to you when I see you ,
When I know we'll never cross paths.

I wonder what it would be like to be happy in my own skin,
Without thinking that I'm to fat for you,
Too tall for you,
Too imperfect.

Wish I could look in the mirror and love myself,
Because I love myself,
Not because you finally looked at me and smiled,
Feel powerful because I am powerful,
Not because I punched you and you said I was strong.
If I could just see myself how I see you.

Wish I didn't have to be someone I'm not,
To appease to others,
To feel worthy of myself,
Not second guess myself just because of you.

I just wish I thought I was enough.