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Prologue

Nag mamadali ako mula sa aking opisina na lumabas dahil sa nabalitaan ko mula sa aking kaibigan. She texted me that she saw Arkin, my boyfriend, in a building where my friend lives. She said that Arkin is with a girl and they look so sweet. At first she thought that I was with Arkin. But when she followed him outside the building she discovered that wasn't me. Of course, how come na kasama ko si Arkin when the whole time I'm here at my office. So I decided to go to Arkin's office to confront him about this issue.

While I was driving my car, I couldn't help to think na totoo ba talaga 'to? These past few months, marami na rin ako naririnig mula sa mga kakilala ko na nakikita nila minsan si Arkin na may kasamang babae. But then I just ignored them because I trust Arkin. But this time, I had enough. I need to confront him about this. I need to know the truth.

Hindi ko namalayan sa kakaisip ko na nakarating na pala ako sa tapat ng building ng office niya. Pagkatapos kong ipark ang aking sasakyan, agad agad akong bumaba at nag mamadaling sumakay ng elevator.

While I'm inside the elevator, I can't help to feel nervous. There's so many thoughts that's running on my mind. What if totoo yon? Sino yung babaeng kasama niya? 

Biglang tumunog ang elevator, senyales na nakarating na kami sa floor ng office ni Arkin nag lalakad na ako patungo sa office ni Arkin nang mapansin ko na wala doon ang sekretarya niya sa table niya. But then, I'm so nervous right now to even care where's his secretary.

Nang makarating ako sa tapat ng pintuan ng kanyang opisina, ramdam na ramdam ko ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko. When I opened the door of his office, I saw the biggest surprise of my life. Parang bombang sumabog sa harapan ko ang nakita ko. I saw Arkin making out with Analiese - his secretary.

Tila hindi nila napansin ang pag dating ko. Kaya binati ko sila upang makuha ko ang atensyon nila.

"What a great surprise to welcome me Arkin and Analiese." I said to them.

Arkin and Analiese froze as they heard me say those words. Nagmamadali silang tumayo na tila walang nangyari.

"Babe, let me explain." Arkin said habang hinahawakan ang kamay ko.

"Explain? No need to explain Ark. Nakita ko kung anong klaseng panloloko ang ginawa niyo sa akin. I trusted the both of you. I ignored everything they said about the issue that you were cheating on me? But eto makikita ko nakikipag make out ka kasama 'yang secretary mo. How could you do this to me?"

Nakita ko si Analiese na naka tungo. Umaalog ang balikat niya, senyales na umiiyak siya dahil sa nangyari. Naawa ako sa kanya ngunit naalala ko yung panloloko nila na ginawa nila sa 'kin.

"Mandy, I'm so sorry for this. Hindi ko ipagkakaila yung nangyari. Mahal ko si Analiese. And I'm such a jerk para pagsabayin kayo. It's just that I don't have the courage to break up with you and to tell you the truth. If you hate me, saktan mo ako. I deserve all of that for hurting you. But please, don't hurt Analiese. Ako na lang."

Tila nabingi ako sa nalaman ko. Mahal niya na pala si Analiese. It breaks my heart to hear that the man that I love isn't in love with me anymore.

"Ganiyan ba ang tingin mo sa 'kin Arkin? Na sasaktan ko si Analiese?" Sabi ko kay Arkin at tumingin kay Analiese.

Sunod sunod na umiling si Arkin at sinabing "No, no Mandy. I know that you're a good person and you won't hurt Analiese. Ako na lang ang saktan mo." Matapos niyang mag salita ay napatungo na lamang si Arkin na tila hiyang hiya.

And at that very moment I realized that Arkin really loves Analiese. I saw how Arkin tried to protect Analiese. I saw how his eyes glistenend when he said to me that he loves Analiese. So I made up my mind.

"I'm breaking up with you Arkin. I just hope that you both live happily. I don't know when will I forget about the mistakes that you've done to me but I know someday I can forgive you. Live happily arkin. Good bye."

Habang binabanggit ko ang mga katagang iyon ay nararamdam ko ang sakit na bumabalot sa puso ko. Pero ito ang alam kong dapat kong gawin. I deserve better than this.

Naglakad ako palayo sa kanila nang biglang naramdaman ko ang pag tayo ni Analiese sa harapan ko, nakita kong halos namumugto na ang mata niya kakaiyak.

"Ms. Mandy, I'm so sorry for breaking your trust, I am also sorry for the mistake that we've done to you. I hope that someday you can forgive us." Analiese said to me while holding my hand.

"Hindi ko alam kung kailan yung araw na mapapatawad ko kayo pero ginawa ko 'to para sa sarili ko. And I know that I deserve better than this. Adios."

Umalis na ako sa opisina ni Arkin at habang nakasakay ako sa elevator ay hindi ko maiwasang umiyak. After showing to them that I'm brave and strong, doon ko naramdaman yung panghihina dahil sa naramdaman kong sakit. I can feel my heart breaking. The pain is too much. Yung lalaking minahal ko nang ilang taon ay pinakawalan ko na.

Lumabas ako ng elevator at pumunta sa aking sasakyan. Pinunasan ko ang mga luha na dumadaloy sa aking mata. At sinimulan ng lisanin ang lugar na 'yon.

I can feel my heart breaking into small pieces. And I can't help to think, do I really deserve this pain?

But I know time will come that I will forget the pain and it will make me become a better version of myself.

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