IU's POV
"Why are you here?" I said without looking at him.
I'm still very upset from what he did yesterday. I didn't sleep well last night and my mind was nowhere to be found while I was doing the radio broadcast.
I was actually very surprised to see him here. I almost jumped at him and hug him but I'm trying my best not to give in immediately.
I'm not mad actually. I'm just upset and disappointed. It was just very unusual because he never missed a day texting me.
Am I too clingy?
I just felt like he's hiding something from me. I want to hit myself for having thoughts of him cheating on me. I know him very well and I know he wouldn't do that.
I looked at him and he's just staring at the bed sheets.
"Aren't you gonna talk? If not, I'll just sleep." I said without giving him any emotions.
He looked at me and I saw his eyes trembling.
"I'm sorry, noona. I'm really sorry."
"I told you to stop saying sorry if you don't know what you're sorry for."
"I--- I lied to you."
"What do you mean?" The thing that I hate the most is lying. And he knows that.
"I purposely ignored your messages." He's biting his lower lip, still avoiding eye contact from me, "I don't want you to get worried---"
"Worried my ass, Jeon Jungkook. I was so worried about you! If you think that ignoring me for whatever reason that is will make me feel at ease, then you're wrong!" I raised my voice at him unconsciously.
I've been silent since yesterday. Even my eomma was worried but she didn't say anything. I couldn't tell my best friend about it because I know that I was being petty.
"I'm sorry---" He held my hands but I removed it.
"I was clueless. I don't know what's happening to you. I don't know maybe you decided to ignore me completely and just... leave me. I don't know. I don't really know."
What scares me the most is when people leave me without saying goodbye. It hurts so much to think that one day you'll wake up and the people you care and love the most is already gone.
Before I knew it, he's already hugging me. I didn't know that I was already crying. I was pushing him away but he's so strong that I gave up escaping from him.
"I'm sorry for making you feel that way, baby. I'm really sorry. Please forgive me."
I didn't answered him and just buried my face on his chest. I missed his warmth. I missed his smell. I missed him.
"Shhh. Please stop crying." He's caressing my hair.
"I hate you."
"I know. And I love you." He held my face and cupped it with his hands.
He wiped my tears using both of his thumbs. Then he gave me kisses all over my face.
"The truth is... I actually hurt myself yesterday. I didn't tell you because I don't want you to get worried. I don't want you to see me in that horrible state again."
I remembered their concert last year here in Korea. I got a call from Jimin telling me that Kookie collapsed right after their last performance. I immediately went to the venue since my shoot was just 10-15 minutes away from them. We just started shooting at that time but I left the shoot saying that I have an emergency.
