•𝚁𝙴𝚄𝙽𝙸𝚃𝙴𝙳•𝙿𝙷𝙸𝙻𝙸𝙿𝙿𝙸𝙽𝙴𝚂•[HAITUS]

•Chapter 11•

Date:January 13, 1982
Time:5:11 a.m.

[Belarus's POV]
It's been I while since I woke up and I don't know why I still remember why my parent did to us in the past,

I tried forgetting it

"U don't deserve to be here!"

I kept trying

"U are ungrateful kid!"

I kept trying and trying

"Why can't u just be perfect!?"

And I didn't notice that I have been crying after all since I woke up, I'm in my room for 20 minutes, I haven't eaten yet and I also lied to Pearl about last night that I'm bored, I just can't let them out,

"Hey Belle- Why are u crying!?"Then Phil came to my room

"Oh I just watched a movie,"I hid my true emotions with a lie

"Your true emotions doesn't match your words," Phil kinda find out that I'm lying

"...."I said nothing

"Just let out your feelings, no one is forcing u to hide it,"Phil said and sat beside me

"The past of my life, What my parent did to us,"I burst into tears

"They did something to u?" Phil asked and I showed a face that she is she is correct as a response

"I tried forgetting it, many times"I said

"Hey don't try forgetting it,"Phil said

"B-but why?"I said confuse

"Because everytime we tried to heal those scars by trying to forgetting, it doesn't work at all,"Phil said those words

"I don't understand"I said trying to understand what she meant

"Because the more we try to forget our past,is the more we remember them,"Phil explained, how come I did not realise that

"That's why our scars don't heal,"Phil said

"I don't know why the memories with my parents are always bad stuff, I tried to remember the good past with my parents"I said

"U don't have to force your self besides my mom always tell this to me every time I cry, I didn't understand it before but after her death I get on what she meant,"She said and I show a face of curiosity and she decides to tell it

"Every action we have done to them, every words we have said to them, we may think that they deserve it but someday, we'll realise those things are our sins and at the same time, we regret it"

"I'm sorry that I did those things to u,"

"I'm very sorry, I'm such a bad parent,"

"I really regret it,"

Those words that Pearl said makes me remember the good memories with my parents, It's the time he said that while we were asleep

"I remember the good memories with my parents since u say those words"I said in relieved

"I'm glad to help"Phil said happily

"Thank u,"I said

"Now let's wipe your tears now and get out of your bed and eat,"She said and I showed a face that I don't want to and she somehow understands it

"I'll tell them not to mind u,"Phil said on what I meant and I wiped my tears and went out of my room with Pearl

"Hey, how did u make someone feel better by just saying words?"I suddenly asked once we went out in the room