Myths And Stars

🌸🕰To The Person I Once Knew🕰🌸

To the one I was. Dear me but not me anymore I presume. Instead of worrying of the monsters in my closet I worry of the ones outside my door. Instead of being me aloud I now can yell but none will hear. No one wants to hear my screams and cries that seem to hide within the skin that was once delicate and fair but is now sharp and thick. My skin doesn't compare to my mind however. Instead of being filled with sparkles and stars my mind has many walls that will slowly chip away so I apply new paint. Instead of dreaming of the world that was once amazing but now I can only see the dark so I wish to escape. My mind is a barrier that is always up and gets in the way, instead of the endless limits that we're once there I get all of them at once and they never stop. But nothing compares to my heart that once was. My heart used to be whole and accepted any who wished to breathe with me. Sadly now my heart has cracks and creaky boards that will break. Day after day my once whole heart fears even the brightest of stars. My old heart is one I wish I would have hid under the bed like I had been told but now. Now my little friend I once knew so well I am doing this for us both. I'm doing This so we can both be happy and I'm going to live the way that I wish I should've long ago. Instead of hiding and yelling and screaming only for none to hear I'm going to kick and yell and laugh so loudly even those who have gone deaf long ago will know who I am. So to the old person I used to be the person I used to know I may have changed and have been damaged I will live on and do everything in my power for you to truly understand. So I know you have a long way to go but you'll get there someday. We both will promise this is a promise I can not break as I myself need it to work. I need us both until then thank you for staying with me for so long.
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Hello all my lovely lemons sorry it's been so long I just couldn't fine myself but I did and I'm still trying. I know life is hard right now just stay with me okay stay strong🌸💫✨🍋