Fake Smile | Jaeyong Nct

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For you I am naked
There's nothing to hide inside the dark
My ego is wasted, as I let you open up my heart
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Since the two wanted to avoid any confrontation or encounter with their members, they did not return to the dorm until the middle of the night and quietly crept across the hall to Taeyong's room. Once in the room, they immediately closed the door behind them in relief and relaxed a little. Both were not happy at all to be back in the dorm and in the same building as Lei. After Jaehyun had found out, that Lei was violent towards Taeyong, he had to hold back not to kill him immediately. He still couldn't believe that Lei had hurt Taeyong and that he couldn't even help him because ,he himself was too blinded by Lei's lies.

Jaehyun sighed and fell on the bed next to Taeyong. The older one had already made himself comfortable, yawned tiredly and immediately snuggled up against the other one's body as soon as he lay beside him. Taeyong closed his eyes and enjoyed Jaehyun's closeness. He too felt quite uncomfortable about being in the dorm again. Not as he was afraid of Lei but because he couldn't bear the hated attitude of the others towards him. He loved the boys. NCT was his family and he felt incredibly bad that it broke apart just because of him.

Jaehyun as well as his Hyungs told him again and again that Lei was to blame for everything, but Taeyong just couldn't suppress his feelings of guilt. If he hadn't treated Lei badly back then, it wouldn't have come so far today. Anyway, he kept telling himself that. Jaehyun slowly began to stroke his hair lightly and gently, which only made him more tired and made him cuddle up more to his boyfriend. Jaehyun smiled slightly and gently kissed Taeyong's forehead.
"Try to get some sleep baby."

Although he was back in the dorm and thus close to Lei, Taeyong managed to fall asleep quite fast. Perhaps it was Jaehyun's presence that made him feel safe and secure. He always felt comfortable in Jaehyun's arms.
Jaehyun was his anchor. He always made Taeyong feel safe. Jaehyun was the first to whom Taeyong had told years ago about his school days and his mistakes. Jaehyun had been there for him from the beginning and had never condemned him. Again and again when Taeyong lay awake at night because his feelings of guilt threatened to drown him, Jaehyun had been there for him, had taken care of him and managed to make him smile again. 

By Jaehyun's presence Taeyong managed to sleep through the night without having nightmares and felt fit enough to start the new day in a good mood. However, his mood worsened when he saw that the side of the bed next to him was empty. On the pillow there was a note written in Jaehyun's beautiful handwriting saying that he was already in the studio for the first recording session. They were still recording the last songs and rehearsing choreographies for their new comeback. Their first comeback with Lei. Sighing Taeyong let himself fall back into his pillow.  He was absolutely not willing to face Lei again. But as a band this could not be avoided. To avoid Lei as much as possible, Taeyong stayed in his room for the morning before he had to go to the studio. However, one hour before he was picked up he sneaked into the bathroom to take a shower. On the way to the bathroom he met Yuta, who raised an eyebrow in surprise when he saw him.
"You are back."
In response, Taeyong just nodded. He didn't know how Yuta reacted to him. But before he could answer him, Johnny entered the hall and hissed slightly at the sight of him.
"Taeyong."
Taeyong bit his lip uncomfortably. In Johnny's presence he once felt comfortable, but today he already got a bad feeling in his stomach as soon as he saw him. Johnny crossed his arms in front of his chest and let his gaze glide over his former leader for a short time before he hissed slightly. "I don't understand how you managed to convince Jaehyun of your lies. Again" 

Taeyong swallowed slightly and raised his eyes to look at Johnny. "Maybe it's because I don't tell lies." He looked at Johnny and tried to resist his gaze.
Johnny's eyes were slit before he snapped spitefully.
"Stop telling us your lies Taeyong. We finally know your real character and know that you are definitely not innocent. So stop playing innocent!"  

This time it was Taeyong who was annoyed and crossed his arms in front of his chest.
"I find it really funny how you trust someone you haven't known for nearly as long as you've known me. But it's good to know what your real character is like."
Taeyong's voice sounded pretty hissing and he was proud of himself for being so brave to stand up against Johnny. When Johnny didn't respond to this, Taeyong turned around and continued his way to the bathroom. 

Surprised Taeyong gasped as Johnny grabbed him roughly by his arm and pressed him against the bathroom door, the door handle digging painfully into his back. 

"Let me tell you something, Taeyong." Johnny's face was inches away from Taeyong's ear. "If you hurt Jaehyun even once, you'll wish you'd never met me."

Speechless and with eyes wide open in shock and fear, Taeyong looked up at Johnny, who looked at him rather angry. His gaze immediately caused unpleasant goose bumps on Taeyong's skin that ran all over his body. But since Taeyong was too shocked to react, Johnny just pressed him more strongly against the door and the doorknob bored itself the deeper into his skin. Slightly painful Taeyong hissed and tried to free himself from Johnny's firm grip. But Johnny was much stronger than him and Taeyong had no chance to break away. Only when Yuta interfered and reminded Johnny that they had to go to the studio right away, the older one let go of him. He glared at him angrily once more before he followed Yuta and left the hall. 

Shocked, Taeyong immediately disappeared into the bathroom, locked the door behind him and let himself slide down on it. His heart was beating like crazy while his back was hurting quite a bit. He still couldn't believe that Johnny hated him that much. As his back was incredibly burning, he pulled himself up after several seconds, if not minutes, and took off his shirt. He twisted slightly in front of the mirror and hissed when he saw the bruise on his back. At one point it even bled a little bit and Taeyong became aware that Johnny is not for nothing one of the strongest NCT members. Still slightly shaky and especially shocked, Taeyong took off the rest of his clothes and jumped into the shower.

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Sorry that  it took me so long to update.

However, someone in my family died and that really threw me off track. For the last 2 weeks I have not been feeling well at all. My schedule was also full of funeral preparations from morning till evening.

Also, my work place has opened again regularly, which means that I don't have much time to write anymore.

i will still try to update weekly, but i can't promise to always be able to do so.