Fake Smile | Jaeyong Nct

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Silence and sound
Did they ever hold each other tight
Like us? Did they ever fight
Like us?

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With eyes widened in panic, Jaehyun watched Taeyong's body collapse on stage. Everyone in the studio seemed to hold their breath before the first screamed in panic. Especially the fans immediately called out for Taeyong in panic. Jungwoo, was the first to run to him while Jaehyun's body froze in shock. He only marginally noticed that the staff team ordered to interrupt the live show and shouted around frantically. Before his eyes he still saw Taeyong falling. Only when Mark bumped into him as he was running to Taeyong as well, Jaehyun shook from his numbness and ran to his boyfriend without hesitation and let himself fall on his knees in front of him. Taeyong's skin was snow white.

"T..Tae?" Carefully, as if Taeyong could break even more, he very gently grabbed his face and inhaled the air in shock when he noticed a laceration at the back of his head as well as the blood on the stage. Of course, he had noticed that Taeyong was getting worse every day and that he was physically deteriorating and yes, of course he wanted to help him, but he didn't know how. He couldn't do more than to be there for him, to show him that he loves him and needs him. Jaehyun had never felt so helpless as in the last weeks. Recently he was even about to run to the Ceo, tell him everything and beg him to kick Lei out of the band, but Taeyong literally begged him not to do so.

 "Jaehyun." Mark pulled the older one slightly away from their leader so two paramedics could get through to Taeyong and carry him off the stage. With eyes still wide open in shock, Jaehyun watched as two paramedics lifted Taeyong from the floor in bridal style and carried him slowly and carefully off the stage. Jaehyun watched as Taeyong's arm hung limply from his body and he lay limp in the arms of the paramedics. Without being able to prevent it, tears came to his eyes and made their way across his cheeks as he freed himself from Mark's grip and ran after the paramedics and the staff team. There is no way he would leave Taeyong alone now.

Mark and Jungwoo stayed shocked on stage and looked at the bloody spot on the stage where Taeyong was lying a moment ago.

"Mark" Johnny, who was also still on stage, put an arm around the canadian's shoulder. "Let's go backstage." Johnny looked at the two younger guys with concern, but a very different emotion grew in Mark. Anger. He was furious. Incredibly angry. He quickly freed himself from Johnny's grip and pushed him back in rage.
"Don't you fucking touch me!" Surprised, he looked at him. "This is all your fault!"
Angry, Mark looked at his Hyung, grabbed Jungwoo's arm, took him off the stage and left a confused looking Johnny behind.

For Mark it was now clear that he was on Taeyong's side and from now on he didn't care if the others would avoid him because of that. Taeyong had done nothing wrong and didn't deserve this at all. And if Mark should be honest he was quite afraid for his leader. All the rumors about his past had always been circulating in the fandom and he had a lot of hater but all this never seemed to be the end of the world for Taeyong, after all he had his friends behind him. Mark couldn't imagine how badly Taeyong had to feel, now that they too had turned against him. He himself felt incredibly bad and wished to apologize deeply to his leader for everything. He didn't understand how he could have believed Lei and let himself be manipulated by him in such a way. 

Mark pulled Jungwoo further into the backstage area where they met Haechan who was also totally pale. On top of that he looked as if he would burst into tears at any moment, so Mark immediately pulled him into his arms. "They took Taeyongs to the hospital. Jaehyun went with them." Haechan pressed lightly against his best friend and buried his nose on Marks shirt. "What the hell just happened?" Mark pulled the younger one closer and looked at Jungwoo, looking for his help.

"This is all Lei's fault. We'll explain everything when we get to a private place. You just have to promise to listen to us." Slightly confused Haechan looked at Jungwoo and nodded slightly. The maknae just wanted to know why all this happened. 

Trembling, Jaehyun sat on one of the hard, metal chairs in the waiting room of the hospital and nervously bounced his legs up and down. For 20 minutes the doctors had been taking care of Taeyong and Jaehyun had the feeling that he could pass out at any moment because of tension and anxiety. Hyunjoon, his manager, was pacing up and down the hallway, alternating on the phone between Taeyong's mother, the Ceo, and Yoojin, their other manager. All the time doctors were walking along the corridor but either they could not or were not allowed to give any information and Jaehyun had the feeling that everything around him was happening in slow motion. Again and again he saw Taeyong's eyes twitching across the stage before all the colors faded from his face and his body collided with the stage. Jaehyun leaned back and buried his face in his hands. His thoughts went crazy and he just wanted to go to his beloved friend, hold him close and never let go. Although he probably could not have prevented it, he still made incredible reproaches. He had noticed how Taeyong became thinner and thinner and went to the studio more and more often than before. Still, he hadn't done anything about it and the guilt was now gnawing at him incredibly. But Jaehyun himself had been on the road every day because of the comeback, so that the two didn't see each other that often and when they had some minutes for themselves they spent them cuddled up close together in bed and enjoyed their time together.

 "Jaehyun!" Shocked, Jaehyun flinched and looked in the direction from which he was called. Baekhyun and Kai ran towards him with rather quick steps and Jaehyun immediately felt more comfortable and above all safer with the presence of his Hyungs. With shaky legs, he rose from the hard chair and was immediately pulled into a tight hug by Baekhyun. As soon as Baekhyun's arms were around his body, part of Jaehyun collapsed and he sobbed desperately, clutching himself more into the arms of the hug. Baekhyun immediately held him even tighter while the worry inside himself grew more and more, because he only knew Jaehyun as an emotionally strong person. "We watched the live stream and followed everything." Kai laid a sympathetic hand on Jaehyun's shoulder for a moment.
"We came here as soon as possible." Baekhyun and Jaehyun slowly separated and Jaehyun rubbed his flat hand over his wet eyes. "S..sorry Hyung."
With a soft expression on his face, Baekhyun looked at him. "Don't apologize for that, it's perfectly normal to be upset by all this."

However, with the arrival of the two, Jaehyun didn't even notice a doctor talking to Manager Hyunjoon.

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I'm sorry I haven't updated you for so long, but I just couldn't continue writing at this point.
As you may have noticed, taeyong in real life is not doing very well right now and I am very worried and couldn't get myself to work on my chapter. Not after everything just got too real. Of course, in reality there is no Lei that makes life difficult for him but a lot of hater who gnaw very much at his mental health.

I'm sorry if the chapter didn't turn out well and I have to admit that I'm not at all satisfied with it. Especially because it was supposed to be completely different.