It Isn't Easy

Orders (Chapter 10)

A/N: I just want to let you guys know, there is going to be some really out of character Toga shit going on in this chapter.

Kirishima's P.O.V

I sat down on the edge of my bed.

Emptiness.
Loneliness.
Fear.
Guilt.
Confusion.

They spiraled around each other in my mind.

A light knock on my door brought me back to my crumbling reality and I humbly stood up and opened the door.

Toga stood on the other side, and worry was written all over her face as soon as she saw me. "I heard all of it. I'm so sorry...if you need anything you can talk to me..." This was not what I expected from her.
She was so bubbly and happy all the time. I wonder what changed.

I nodded slowly and felt tears began to drip down my face.

"Oh no, don't cry please..." The blonde girl began to panic and quickly hugged me. She wrapped her arms around my waist and patted my back.
"Shhh...I'm sorry Kirishima. I'm here..."

"I'm sorry I'm just...what did I do wrong? It was so sudden, what changed?" I hiccuped between sobs.

"I don't know but he's an asshole, I'm here to let you talk alright. And if you want me to talk to him I will.

"No I don't want you to talk to him, he needs space...But thank you for the offer..."

She nodded and looked up at me worriedly.
"It'll be okay Kirishima, everything will be okay." The blonde assures.

I took a few deep breaths and managed to calm down slightly, wiping my tears from my eyes. "I'm sorry for worrying you and being so unmanly. I'm okay, I promise."

"Okay, am I okay to leave?"

"Yes, thank you for being here..."

"It's no problem! If you ever want to talk or something I'm here for ya!" Her voice was back to its bubbly tone and I smiled softly.

"Alright. Thanks again."

"Yep! Also, I think Shigaraki want to see you, just so you know." Toga bounced off.

I stumbled back into my room and closed the door, wiping away the rest of my tears and throwing on better clothes. Dark blue jeans and my red sweatshirt.

Walking out of my room, I carefully made my way down the stairs and into the bar area, where the gloomy man sat.

"Eijiro Kirishima. I've got a mission for you."

I inhaled and nodded, looking at him curiously.
"What is it?"

"Well I've been thinking that you haven't really gotten a h cb since to fully prove yourself. So, to show your loyalty I have decided on something for you to do."

"Easy enough, what is it?" My voice was light, but I was uneasy by the small glint in his eyes as he peered through the tangled blue hair that framed his pale face.

"I want Bakugo gone. He's caused me enough trouble and keeps getting worse. And what do we do to rabid dogs Dabi?"

I hadn't even noticed the raven haired male, he had been so quiet.

"You fucking put them down." He responded, not missing a beat.

"Do you mean gone like...out of the organization or..." I trailed off, turning to look at the tall mist guy standing behind the bar counter.

He stared back with narrowed eyes and I clenched my fists behind my back.

"Dead. It's better off that way. I noticed you two have gotten close, which just makes this easier. He's less of a problem you'll have to worry about, getting injured and shit, and less emotions to deal with." Shigaraki shrugged, glancing over at Dabi, who nodded in response.

"I guess so...how long do I get?" I asked, my voice soft.

"I'll give you a month. After that you're out if it isn't done."

I gulped and nodded, turning around.

"And Eijiro, be careful around him, he's being sensitive lately."

A small, bitter laugh bubbled in my chest and I let it out, shaking my head slightly.
"No kidding..." I sighed, taking the stairs up to my room two at a time.

I slammed the door closed and leaned against it, sliding so I sat down with my knees to my chest.

I felt panic begin to sink in and my lungs burned for air. I clenched my jaw and stared blankly at the floor, tears slowly trailing down my cheeks.

So this is it.
I either have to kill my best friend, who I'm fucking in love with, or I have to leave.
There's nowhere for me to go now. My chances of being a hero are done, and I wouldn't want to be one anyway.
And other organizations meet with the L.O.V, so my I'd come face to face with him again, and it could be in a battle.
What am I supposed to do?

I slammed my hands on the floor and closed my eyes, breathing heavily.
"Damnit!" I shouted, not caring who heard.

"Fuck this shitty ass fucking place and most importantly fuck my life. Fuckkkkkkkkk." I growled, standing up and kicking my door.

But my dumbass self didn't harden my skin so now my fucking foot hurt on top of my life going to shit.

Today was just peachy.

I felt like fucking Bakugo right about now. I wanted to curse like a sailor, and I was starting to sound like him when I talked.

They say you shouldn't make someone your whole world because one day they'll leave, we'll I did just that and now my stupid heart got trampled all over. Way to go Kirishima.

"Hey Kirishima? It's Twice...Shigaraki wants you to go with Bakugo tomorrow and scout out some new spots that we can take over." The older blond called through the door.

"'Kay!" I called back, trying to sound as cheery as I could muster at a time like this.

"You know kid...you can talk to me if you need to. I know we aren't close or anything but Im definitely here to listen." A higher pitched tone, the second tone to Twice's voice, answered after a minute of silence.

"Thanks Twice. I'll let you know."

"Mhm." I heard the retreating steps and knew he had left.

Shit sucks.

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Sup fuckers I'm back with hella mood swings. I'm sorry my schedule isn't near and orderly, I've been all over the place reading, writing, cosplaying and the like. I'm continuing this story and I'll be starting new ones soon.