Heartbeat

Ch.15

Ch.15 (Magnus pov)

I feel like a little crack on a crystal glass. The glass, apparently perfect because a crystal is supposed to be perfection. Yet, I'm just a plain imperfect piece of glass in the middle of millions of crystals. I wonder if I cry, will someone hear me?

If I scream, will someone listen to me?  Nobody would care. No one  would look after me, why would they? After all, I could drown and maybe the news will reach the media but then? What will that matter? People will forget it after one day as if nothing happened. I finally stopped running, run out of breath.

Once I could feel my breath coming back again, I glanced around. It was dark, I don't even know what time was since I've left everything at home if I could still call it like that. I did by impulse, without really thinking twice and look where I ended up.

Alone, like always. It's not like I always had someone, a friend or a sibling. I had nobody. I should be used to be like that, all alone, yet... it still feels so lonely and it hurts, sometimes so much that makes me cry. 

It was only now, that it hit me. I was alone. Now, where will I go? Maybe I can survive tonight, but tomorrow? It's too late to come back there, she will not welcome me, she will scream more. I shivered suddenly, the heat of the run before vanished, replaced by the cold of the night. I brushed off the tiredness and kept walking, even if my legs hurt and my eyes were sometimes closing on their own.

After what felt like hours, I suddenly stopped.

Too tired to bother to look where I was, my body couldn't take anymore, my legs felt like jelly as if I've run all day. I kneeled down on the ground, exhausted and didn't even feel the rough impact when my legs touched the hard asphalt. I didn't feel the cold anymore, my mind was becoming fuzzy and eyes, slowing closing.

'So tired..." I thought before my eyes rolled back.