Finding The Gang Leaders Heart

Chapter Nineteen

The first thing I laughed about today is Jake was sleeping on the couch. It's funny because I know we have plenty of extra rooms but Colby still made him sleep on the most uncomfortable thing in the house. The second thing I laughed at today was Toddy passed out on the kitchen counter shirtless. Unfortunately, those are the only two times I laughed today.

In a few hours Colby, Jake, and I were at the airport. Colby got me and him a private jet and left Jake to fend for himself.

"I don't like him," he said as Jake walked towards his gate.

"Neither do I," I chuckled. He put his hand on my back and we walked to our gate.

The plane ride went by fast, I fell asleep on Colby's chest while he watched a movie. The worst part about today is that we were going to spend the night at my old house. It was my choice of course, I guess I wanted to just to get some closure.

We pulled up to the house and I already felt sick. The taxi dropped us off and we walked to the door. There was an extra key under the mat and I used that to get in. The house was quiet, something it never was.

I walked into the house to hear loud crashing. Mom was out of state on business and Dad was using this to his advantage. I tried to close the door without making any noise. Unfortunately he saw me. A bottle flew in the air and broke against my thigh. My blood stained my white jeans. I ran upstairs ignoring his screaming. I missed Isaac, I wanted him to come back. I locked my door and cried.

Stepping into the house felt like going back into time. I wanted to cry and scream and curse the world, but I held myself strong. Colby explored on his own and I walked upstairs. I walked into my old room. Plain white walls, a purple blanket on the bed. Pictures lined the top of the dresser. My mom and I are laughing in the garden. My dad held me as a baby. Jake holding flowers for me. I couldn't keep it in any longer and tears fell all the way to the ground. I held the picture of me and Isaac so close to my chest I thought I would cut myself. The picture was taken five years ago. We both had cake on our faces and were laughing. It was his birthday party. I fucking missed him so much.

Colby came in and didn't ask questions. He looked at all the pictures and then stopped at the one of Jake. He carefully set it face down so no one had to look at it. He turned his attention back to me. He carefully grabbed the picture I was holding and examined it. He set it back on the dresser and pulled me into a hug.

"Why can't I be strong" I whispered through tears. Colby pulled away and looked at me like I was crazy. His blue eyes looked weird and they were sparking.

"Tal, you're the strongest person I know. I don't know many people that can do what you can do" he said. I pulled him back into the hug. Colby is my rock.