My Digital Journal

To Much Stuff Going On Q^Q

So I haven't been sleeping for about 3 - 4 days and been taking short naps in the day. I know i should get sleep and that staying up for so long is bad for me yeah yeah. But honestly I can't. I know it sounds stupid but honestly!! I've been waking up with anxiety in the middle of the night for no reason and having very vivid terrors you call "nightmares." So i just started staying up. I am going to TRY to sleep but of I one more of those dreams SO HELP ME I WILL THROW MY BED OUT THE WINDOW!! Ò>Ó. Ooff. My mom has work tonight so that's something. My brothers are playing a Star Wars game. As I'm writing this I'm listening to "Sub Urban." In my opinion he is a great singer! Each song has a meaningful relatable feeling. I just don't know what about his song interests me but I think it's the meaning of the song I'm drawn to. I think I want to draw Gohan next. My grandpa came to visit. It hurts me to see him but I talk to him anyway. He seems so calm. I honestly missed him. He got his wife my grandma a new car. It was red and very high tech. It looked amazing! My mother doesn't want me going to school anymore since I told her about the incident. Doctor told me I may have PTSD. Again...I honestly dont know what it means. Before we were forced to stay home I found out my Ex was dating my friend. So I got used to it until. He came to "visit me." It scared me. I was scared of him. He was a reminder of those days. I called for my brother locking the door. He was pounding on the door telling me to open up. I was panicking until my older brother came. He opened the door and yelled at him to Fuck off. He threw a punch at my brother. He missed so my brother went and punched him across his face. Later on we found out he fractured his jaw. Funny, right? Anyway. That's seemed to be about it I wanted to rant about. Thank your reading threw this hot mess. Again I am working on a new book to get my mind off of stuff. Here is some art now and thank you again!!!