verbatim. - cscoop

the truth.

pleasant surprise, that's not what she'd call it. it's embarrassing, lethal, not what she asked for. he convinced her, it felt oddly familiar.

i woke up on the bed, in Cooper's embrace, it was warm. his arm was snaked around my waist. i was facing the wall.

i left the fucking tv on.

i tried to escape from Cooper's grasp without waking him up. he squirmed and rolled over. i was surprised he didn't shoot up like a scared cat. i felt gross, i don't remember fucking.

i walked to the bathroom and stared at the mirror, i had to tell cooper that it's not happening.

i splashed my face with cold water and grabbed my toothbrush and put toothpaste on it. i wanted to punch the mirror and disappear.

"shit, sorry."

his morning voice swarmed my head as he walked in and out the bathroom quickly. i ran my toothbrush under the water and started brushing my teeth.

"so, Iza. you wanna get lunch later?"

i shrugged and pointed in the air and took the toothbrush out of my mouth to talk.

"i'd love to but nah."

he tilted his head like a confused dog.

i frankly didn't know how to tell him i wasn't interested. we've hung out for two days and i've talked to him more than i have the whole time i've known him.

"why not?"

"i don't want to date you."

he looked crushed, his eyes lost their shine, he slumped where he sat in the couch.

"i get it."

i hope he did, i feel like shit. i just wanted a friend, someone who i could hang out with and turn to when i was bored.

i rolled my eyes ultimately and turned back into the bathroom to spit and clean up my shit.

"i'm sorry Cooper. really i am."

"why? you didn't do anything."

he chuckled and scratched the back of his head. i sat next to him and hugged him tightly.

"you just deserve better."

i hum in his ear before pecking his cheek and standing up to go find clothes to change into.

"you remember what you said to me in your car? verbatim?"

"no."

i said, grabbing jeans and a work shirt. i just changed in front of cooper, i was wearing underwear he'll live.

"you said i wasn't half bad myself. i took it the wrong way, didn't i?"

"oh, no cooper. you didn't. quite frankly, i don't know what i want. you're an amazing guy, you deserve the world in my eyes. but i'm not someone you'd want to keep."

i said, i felt tears boil up in my eyes, i wiped at my face before feeling Cooper's arms around me. i held onto him and just cried like a bitch.

"we can try again."

"will you wait?"

i looked up at him, he let go of me and wiped away my tears with his thumbs.

"i'd wait until the earth stops, Izabelle Louise."

happy endings aren't always the same.