dreamboy | briwoon [day6]

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I rested my head on his shoulder as always, him caressing the back of my head. “Tomorrow will be a better day.” I only shrugged, not answering him. “I really want to meet you, Dowoonie.”

The oh so familiar sound of my alarm made me open my eyes to reach for my phone eagerly, wanting the sound to stop as soon as possible.

A groan left my mouth as I realized I dreamt about that guy again. It's probably been the twentieth time I've dreamt about him. It started out in my livingroom – that's where the dreams mostly take place – and he was just there. I wasn't even sure if it was really a dream at first, ready to call the police.

At first I didn't know anything about him but by just talking to him I found out more and more about who he actually is. His name is Younghyun, Kang Younghyun. I don't know much more. But what I know is that he's actually helped me a lot, getting through the weeks. Maybe it's my subconsciousness telling me that I need somebody to be there for me.

I didn't even know I liked boys before he appeared in my dreams. I thought I just didn't like the idea of dating anyone until then. It was when I kept only dreaming about him and thus spent more time with him, him treating me so lovingly, when I actually started developing feelings for him for real.

He knew from the start that this was only me dreaming and wasn't real – or maybe I secretly knew but didn't want to believe it. But it most definitely felt real. Though, I didn't even know if he actually existed and he didn't know either but obviously he thought he was.

Someone once told me that you can't dream about people you've never seen or met at least subconsciously. So that had to mean he was, in fact, a real person. Just how would I know if he is like he is in my dreams and if Younghyun is even his real name? What if he's entirely different? If he even really exists. By now I really doubt it.

Who'd I be to be lucky enough to have something like meeting the literal person of my dreams happen to me? Lately everything just became boring. My job, my life, everything. The only things that kept me sane were my dog, Tori, my cat Hosun and well... Younghyun.

I tried searching him up on the internet countless of times already. Nothing. Not a single sign of him actually being a real person. So I stopped doing that, grasping so hard onto the hope of him just not having any social media accounts or any tracks at all on the internet. That hope, very slowly, started to fate nevertheless.

Getting a hold of reality, I remembered the only remotely positive thing of today: It's Friday. Finally. That meant I didn't have to work tomorrow! But that didn't really change all too much. It only meant I'd be sitting inside, sleeping until who-knows-when and playing games, alone. I was not the type of person to go out and party or meet new people in general. But sadly, that was also the reason why I didn't really have any friends.

Well, I did have friends but you know how it is: You finish school and everyone just ends up going their own path and so did they and I. If they didn't wanna put any effort in staying friends with me, why would I? No one's really to blame here. It just gets lonely sometimes.

I finally got out of bed and right into the bathroom to get ready for work. I had to work at this boring convinience store. Before, I worked in that one cute pet's shop. That's where I got Tori from. They took really good care of all the animals but unfortunately, they had to close up. They were only a small, independent shop and the concurrence was just too big.
At the time they had to close the shop, times were actually getting harder for me, too. It's like this one little event that causes everything around you to collapse, eventually. Just like a snowball rolling down a hill, getting bigger and bigger the further it rolls.