𝙅𝘼𝙃𝙎𝙀𝙃 𝙄𝙈𝘼𝙂𝙄𝙉𝙀𝙎

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𝙆𝙞𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙖'𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙫

"jah i've been feeling weird lately" i said speaking to my boyfriend. i was on my phone and he was playing League of Legends .

he didn't say not one word. i sighed loudly tryna get his attention. it still didn't work. "did you hear me" i spoke softly again .

"go to the doctor or sum" he muttered keeping his eyes on his large computer. i let my arms fall to my side. he really doesn't care.

these past 3 days, he's been acting weird or outta proportion. we haven't really did anything lately, and i hope he's not cheating.

i looked up types of sickness symptoms i could have, and pregnancy popped up. i hope i wasn't pregnant.

we both agreed on children, just later.

i grabbed my keys, kissing his cheek and telling him i'm heading to the store. he say anything.

i rolled my eyes, leaving not caring much anymore . i was walking in the store looking for the medicine isle.

i finally found them and grabbed 3 just in case, then walked to the cashier. i paid and left .

when i got home, he was still on the game. i expected him to be off. this pissed me off even more.

"jahseh" i raised my voice.

"what girl, damn" he questioned harshly. "can you get off the game please". he didn't move.

i walked into the restroom doing what i needed to do. i set a timer for 10 mins and waited on the bed, scrolling through insta.

the only thing that could be heard was jahs yelling, and the keyboard buttons.

i know something that'll get em' off. i got up walking to him. cutting off the pc and taking off the headphones, his jaw dropped.

"why da fuck would you do that amouria!" he yelled. him using my government made me upset. he never said it unless he was serious.

"i want attention jahseh and you're not givin it to me" i said as tears brimmed my eyes.

he clenched his teeth pushing past me to go downstairs. my head fell down looking at the floor.

did he stop loving me ?

was all i thought. the timer on my phone rang through the air, as i ran to the space to look at the test.

tears swam down my cheeks as i read the double lines on all three.

i'm pregnant.

i sucked up my tears, and walked downstairs. he was sitting on the couch watching anime.

"j-jah" i stuttered. "what" he snapped.

i walked in front of him and he looked up at me. i placed them text on his lap and he looked down.

"fuck is this for, you betta not be pregnant"

he looked closely and closed his eyes.

"abortion" he said quickly. "w-what, why. we both planned on having children jahseh. not now bu.."

he cut me off. "not now, listen to yourself. like i said abortion, get rid of it. ion wan no baby"

"jahseh what tha fuck, you've been actin weird for days now, wassup"

"nun" he shook his head. "can we at least put it up for adoption"

"amouria, what i said"

"you know what....fuck you jahseh. get tha fuck outta my house now!" i stammered. i was tired of his bullshit.

how could he say that. smacking his lips, he got up getting his shit and leaving.

i felt so disgusted with myself. so disappointed. i just felt like disappearing.

i posted on insta, saying some sad things and logging out.

i got in my car driving anywhere. i made my choice and swerved onto the upcoming cars.

i sped up leaning forward. i hit a small suv and lifted in the air, turning on my side. i saw car lights stopping in front.

i was in so much pain. i heard yelling from all directions, until i closed my eyes and was peaceful. no more pain, no more disappointment, no more hurt.

thank you......jahseh dewayne ricardo onfroy. you'll forever be my heart .