Is this love?

The Wedding

It was my wedding day and I was the happiest bride and woman on the plannet. As a teenager I had always dream of what I'll like my wedding to be like, and today far surpass it. I left most of the planning up to Antonia and Kyanna because to be honest the most important part is that Nash would be my husband forever.

"Nessa!" Raven called as she swoops into my dressing room. "this place is romantic, I love the look."

I turn from the mirror and smiled at her, "of course it is,"

I couldn't help but notice she wasn't looking like her self, she had gain weight in the last three months that we had been apart, I know she was a little disappointed that she wasn't able to get a vocation due to her case being drag out but somehow she wasn't looking like her usual self. I hated to be selfish but I really don't want to ask her what's bothering her on my wedding day, I just don't want to be thinking about her problems while I'm say my vows to Nash but on the other hand if I don't ask and try to help out, I'll feel guilty all day.

Sitting down I pat the chair next to me. "lets talk for a minuite"

She sat next to me and shook her head " we are not talking about it I'm fine, today is your wedding day, its all about you and Nash today; my problems could wait"

I stared at her, to be honest I was kind of relieved not to have discuss her problems today but I still needed to know what was happening to her. I hate that she only fly out here two days ago and with her weight gain we had been busy with her dress fitting and wedding stuff.

"So you admit that you have problems" I said smiling slightly at her. "don't we all" she answered in a tired voice. "Don't worry Nessa it's just work, you know how I get sometimes." she leans in and hugs me. " Don't worry about it, by the time you're back from you honeymoon my work problems should be over." She kiss me on the cheek and stands.

" Let's get you dress and to the alter."

Putting Raven problems out of my mind, my hear started to drum in excitement as I think about walking up the aisle in front of our thousand of friends and family. Butterflys were in my stomach and they were super active. I keep walking back to the mirror and staring at myself. I had to look at me to make sure it was me and I wasn't dreaming. That it was me marrying the most perfect man on earth, that it was me with four perfect kids, that it was me who's so happy. In all my daydreams of my wedding day as a teenager I never thought it would happen and after my first marriage I had resign myself to living out my years alone.

"Nessa" Raven called to me softly. I look up at her in the mirror, she came on behind me and rest her hands on my shoulders, I knew she couldn't hug me or my dress would get wrinkles on it.

"You could believe it's happening, you deserve this and I'm proud and happy for you."

"Don't make me cry, the tears would ruin my makeup" I said giving her a watery smile. Turning toward her I said "Thank you for being my sister Raven and for loving me"

" Don't thank me Nessa, you know I'll always be here for you"

" Awwww that was sweet but could we break it up now the groom is wait" Luke said as he entered my dressing room.

"God Luke could you be any less annoying" Raven snapped at him.

" I could be... if the two of you would stop with all the sappy I love yous. With all the crying and woman hormones. A man could just balls shrivel up and die. I have to do something to even the playing field. "

"And here I was thinking you had no balls" Kyanna said as she entered the room.

Luke turn around and looked at her. " Baby doll I'm glad to hear that you have been thinking about my balls but all you had to do was ask and I would have shown them to for a price of course."

I couldn't help but laugh at the look on Kyanna's face. She ignore him and walk to me. " Nessa you look beautiful" I smile at her. " Thank you"

"How are the kids," I ask her. "They' re fine all dress and waiting. You know Antonia, she's double checking to make sure everything is perfect."

Raven hands me my flowers and we all walk out of the room, Gabe was walking me down the aisle, earlier he and I had our little talk and I know he was still grieving but I'm glad he was here to give me away today.

"Nessa it time" Kyanna whispered as I hear the wedding march started playing. My whole body was trembling and my heard was pounding in my chest so hard that if I had a heart attack it wouldn't surprise me.

"Relex, breathe" Gabe whispered to me and we started walking down the aisle. I took a deep breath and look up, there was Nash waiting for me. He looked so handsome in her tux. My heart stopped racing and I no longer felt nervous, I almost fly put of Gabe arms at my hurry to get up the aisle, luckily for me he was holding me pretty tight and he didn't let me embarrass myself.

Nash took my hands when we reach at the alter and he shook Gabe hands. He then leans in and kiss my cheek.

Holding Nash hands looking into his eyes as we stand at the alter would remain in my memory as one of the best days of my life. I must confess that I didn't hear a think the Pastor said. Looking into Nash eyes whiles he look at me we with love was kind of amazing and distracting at the same time.

He kiss me deeply and passionately that I forget for a few minutes where I was. I know I must of look silly with this huge grin fixed on my face but I couldn't help it. I was deliriously happy, I had just married the love of my life.

"Mummy you look so beautiful" Antonia said to me as we were posing for pictures in from of the church.

I smile at her before walking over to the photographer and remindingbhim I needed a family picture for our home.

Nash and I was in the middle with Raven at my side and Kyanna at Nash's side with Antonia and Antonio holding the twins in there arm. This was the picture to hang in our home for years to come showing the day Nash and I decided to pledge our love to each other in front of God, our family and friends.