•speechless•||•mariano castano•

p a r t s i x t e e n🖤.

🖤speechless🖤.

mars pov:
"i'm so sorry..."
the nurse began.

my heart dropped. this is all my fault. if i didn't fuck alessya then none of this would have happened.

what if she's dead? what if my baby is dead? what if she's dead and it's all my fault. i caused this pain. and now karma is a bitch and is making me feel the same way she felt when she saw me and alessya.

"... she's died"

i felt my knees buckle underneath me and i dropped sobbing into my hands.
tears streaming down both me and samys face.

samy got up, pulled me up w him and punched me strait in the face.

third person pov:
the Chinese boy felt nothing but anger when he saw the mexican.
this was all his fault.
samy thought of paige as his best friend and would do anything to protect her. even if they just met a few months ago.

maybe mar deserved that. no in fact he did deserve it.

mars pov:
after the punch me and samy cooled down and are now calm. even if he's pissed at me were still bros.

we finally got to see paige. and say our last goodbyes. i occurred to me that paige's dad hasn't came to see her yet. maybe he didn't get called.

samy went in first because i wanted alone time w her.
after about 30 mins samy came out w his eyes puffy. red around his eyes as if he's stoned
[ fun fact i got put in isolation @ my school because i was crying and because my eyes go red when i cry, all my teachers thought i was stoned and bunned in the school toilets:/]
i stood up and was about to walk in when samy pulled me into a hug.

"i love you bro"
i gave him a weak smile.
'i love you more' i thought to myself.

i walked in and sat down on the chair in front of her.

'hey baby girl, i wish i could say this out loud but i don't think my body is capable of that, i'm hurting but you were hurting 10x more. and i'm so sorry for what i did. i regret everything. and no it wasn't because i got caught or because you found out. she actually drugged me, but das not the point. i'm so sorry for hurting you to the point where you had to take your own life. this guilt is just going to build up in me and i know it's what i deserve. i deserve to feel like this and i wish i could go back time, when we first met and you were trying to help me. and when i asked for your number. trust me, i was scared shitless when i wrote that. i guess it's because i was scared you were going to reject me. or the time when you had dinner at mine and we watched my tiktoks and you got horny. or when we made fun of samy for how he ate his pancakes. i'm sorry i put you through this.'

i sat there not thinking anything. my mind blank. just silence.

i'm sorry again. i knowww yall are mad at me.
but anyway just a few more chapters and this book is finished.