I Think I Love Him.

Chapter 7

"What do you want to do? I'm bored. We could watch Shrek again."

Tori's over and we're trying to decide on what to do. I'm only half listening because I'm thinking. It's all I've been doing lately, if I'm being completely honest.

"What's wrong? You've been staring at that wall for the past 5 minutes. I even threatened to play Friday by Rebecca Black. You HATE that song."

I take in a deep breath and look up at her.

"He broke up with his girlfriend." Tori hops up and starts celebrating but stops when she sees me still slouched on my chair.

"Why are you not celebrating? This is good! He's single now! You guys can get together now."

"I don't want that! That's all I've been saying for months. I don't want him to be my boyfriend. I don't want to be his girlfriend. I don't want to be seen as the girl who broke people up. It makes me feel...dirty."

"Look. You know we're all joking, right? Of course you would make the cutest couple ever and you have great chemistry, but don't let it get to your head. At the end of the day, we're all just teasing you. If you want, I'll stop."

"Thanks. The whole thing makes me really uncomfortable. I like how things are right now. I'm not even sure I like him like that."

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It's Friday night and me and Beth are driving home from a Target run. She reaches for the stereo and turns it off.

"Can I ask you something?" She looks a little scared, I'm not sure why.

"Yeah, what's up?"

"I've been spending a lot of time with Ben lately and I think I like him. Like....really like him. Is it okay for me to want to spend more time alone with him?"

"Duh! It's a great way to get to know him! That's how James and I got so close. It really helps to get to know a person."

"So how's that going, anyway?"

"James and I? Well, first off, there is no 'James and I' in the relationship sense. We're just friends. But it's going great! He's really my best friend. I feel like I could tell him anything."

She looks at me with a look I can't quite decipher.

"I want that. More than anything. I hope someday Ben and I can be like that."

She's daydreaming at this point. We're sitting in her car in the parking lot in front of our dorm now and we see Ben.

"There's Ben! Let's go see if he wants to hang out! I'll distract James so you can get to talk to him alone for a bit."

She smiles at the thought

"I bet you'd LOVE to distract him...come on, let's go."

We walk inside and head to their room. Their door is open a little and we see that they're playing video games.

Boys. Such simple creatures.

We walk in and it takes them a while to notice. There's something so nice about watching a boy in their natural habitat. Usually, they're little shits who live to make your life miserable, but right now, they look so innocent. I look at James and he's lying on his stomach looking at the screen. He's biting his lip and honestly...I'm a little into it.

God, what I wouldn't give to be able to bite that lip...

I shake my head to get rid of the thought. Beth is looking at me. She totally knows. I turn away to hide my blushing cheeks then decide to speak up.