NOT ALONE. NOT ANYMORE

June 30th

POV : KIARA

Sleep..Sleep is the ultimate solution to everything. Got headache, sleep. Got dark circles, sleep and if you need a reason for not picking up your mom's call, sleep.

But.... What if you got insomnia. Then sleep is the last thing that can do any help. When your brain keeps blabbering some shit twenty four seven, all you can do is pretend deaf and do something to distract yourself. Now, that's exactly what I was doing.

One thing I know the world is never gonna have a scarcity for is good music. So I put on my head set and decide to study for a while.....which probably will extend to the whole night.

Mia and Joe never mention about me and Theo ......mainly because they saw how disturbed I was that I got sad and happy and angry and all together......most of the time , all I feel is confused....one moment I have all the courage and confidence to just stand in front of Theo and tell to him all that I feel about him and kiss him like I'll die if I don't....then the next moment ... it just fades away and all I can think about is my parents and what they'll do when they find out that their little princess values LOVE more than all the RESPECT and TRUST that they gave.....I feel a lot stupid after thinking all of this. It's not like I decided to kill somebody ...it's just that I decide to start living my life just how I want it to be like. Everyone falls in love ....even they did...so..I'm not doing anything wrong.

But whatever I think ...I just can't disobey my parents even though I'll be turning 19 this year...it's so shameful..Mommy's good girl....Urgh!!!.......GOD!!...I wish I wasn't this attached to my parents ...then all of this will be a lot better....anyway, their just my parents...they'll understand....I'm probably just over thinking all of this...mmm..take a deep breath..and relax...i hate being stupid..FuCk thiS shiT!!

*knock knock*

I took an ear out from the music and asked to come in when Sara poked her head in through the door.

"Oh... so finally the doctor has some time to spend with me."

Sara has always been like my big sister. We don't need words to say what the other wants, our eyes do it all. But these days she has been a little too much busy. She leaves in the morning and comes back home at midnight. I know that it's not just the work that keeps her busy....Peter has a good hand in it too.

" oh come on..I'm just an assistant ...not a complete doctor yet.."

"ok...DOCTOR.."

I like the way she does with her face with narrowed brows and the lips held tight to her right that all of the blushing chubbiness get squished in her cheeks. She always asks me not to call her a doctor but I know that she secretly feel's proud that her head might hit the ceiling.

While I settled down to do my work with the headset still bombing with music, she walked around the room going through the stacks of books which she too had but only that they were of biology and stuffs. Tired of moving her fingers through the endless books, she opened the closet and shuffled through the fabrics neatly hanged all over the room.

I could see the way her eyes widened at almost every one of them like it's the first time she's seeing something like it. Sara kinda spend her whole life dipped deep inside books that she never cared doing her nails or whether her shirt matches her pants. She had a huge closet too but the only thing you'll ever find in there is a few shirts and formal pants which makes it never too hard to decide as all of them look the same.

Still looking at the clothes Sara starts to day dream.

"Kia......I...I came..to tell something....KIA?.."