Our Love....After Forgiveness

Chapter Six

Sanem gave him a slight smile, looking away, she said, " Can, what brought this on, did Polen bring it on. You think I need a proposal to get rid of the doubt I have of her. " Please, don't think that." Can looked confused, he took her hand and said, " Sanem, my love, my only love, I want to be with you always. Day and night, I hate to bring you home every night it kills me to let you go." So, no, this is not at all brought on by Polen. She is not in my mind at all, just you and only you."     Sanem could see the seriousness in his face, maybe he did want this. She had dreamed of nothing else since they declared their love for one another, but never felt worthy of the Divit name. 

Her mind was her own worst enemy, she knew she had to relief herself of that thought. She loved him with all her heart and then some, she had nothing to be ashamed of, in fact she had developed into quite a successful woman, full of hope for her future. She had a lot to offer, and she longed to offer it all to Mr. Can Divit. She touched his face, caressing and stroking his beard, she smiled whispering, " Can, that sounds like a dream to me, being with you for the rest of my life, but you know our traditions." Are you willing to follow the steps that my parents are going to require?" His eyes darkened, the desire in that look smothered her. His voice was low and raspy,       " There's nothing, absolutely nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for you Sanem, just to make you mine completely and wholly. " I am more than willing, so just get ready." He gently kissed her lips, but lingered there for an extra second, just to take in the beautiful fragrance that always surrounded her. Her, this moment, this feeling he had in the pit of his stomach was the very thing he wanted for the rest if his life. She had brought him from that man of solitude to the person that actually needed someone, and he wasn't about to mess this up...

She melted, completely in awe of the effect that another human could have on her. Her heart was jumping for joy, but she had to act in control. He opened his eyes, staring into her eyes, he said, " So we have an agreement then, no backing out. I will handle everything ok." I'll do everything by the book, don't worry." Oh, but what if your dad doesn't give me your hand," What happens then,....I know, we will run away together, hide away somewhere secluded and romantic. " He laughed. She immediately filled with fear, her eyes got big, and full of tears. " Do you think that will happen? " She spouted. Sometimes she was so gullible it made him laugh, he shook his head, " No, Sanem, I was joking, I don't think that will happen. " My relationship with your parents is good. " You'll see, everything will be fine." Can replied as he gently stroked her face.

She relaxed, he took her in his arms, helping her let go of all the negatives in her mind. The feeling of his arms around her always made her better, she felt safe, like nothing could come between them. They finally parted, and she entered her house. All the thoughts still swirled around in her head, " I wonder when he plans on talking to Dad." She thought. He'll probably  want it to be a surprise,   Oh My God, I can't believe it's really going to happen. She had been so excited she forgot to talk to him about the possible speaking engagements an promotional events for her book. She would be sure an take the time tomorrow to let him know what was going on. Getting ready for bed, but she knew she probably wouldn't sleep....

Can's excitement had him nervous, just knowing what was about to be. He poured a drink and sat out by the pool. First he would look for a ring, it had to be a special one, different yet simple, beautiful and original, just like her. How would he find the time to go and look for it , he thought, she'll get suspicious if I'm sneaking around. He was deep in thought, not seeing Emre walk out from the kitchen. " Brother, I didn't hear you come in, how long have you been home." He asked. Can jerked around, startled to see his brother, " What are you doing up at this time, is everything ok." He asked.  Emre nodded, saying he was having trouble sleeping. He could see his brother was deep into his thoughts, he wondered if the involvement of Polen with the potential clients had anything to do with it. It bothered him to see Can and Sanem be put through such tests in the life. " Is everything ok with you, you seem deep in thought, " Emre stated. Can smiled, nodding he said, " It's better than ok, it's fantastic." Sanem and I have decided to join our lives, with her parents blessing, of course, " i think it's time to get married." Emre laughed, happy for the couple, but more than anything, relieved they didn't let Polen disrupt their lives. The brothers hugged, allowing them to live the joy that they both felt. Emre questioned him about the engagement ritual, when did he plan to talk to Nihat. They were very strict about the procedure. Can smiled, telling him, soon, very soon. Can ask Emre to have Leila keep it all a secret from mother and dad, he wanted to do everything right as not to offend them.

Sanem wanted desperately to go to sleep, her dreams of Can always made her feel so warm and desired. As she drifted off, she recalled his words, " I want to be with you always."  Her dreams of him had turned into a nightmare, she trashed about in the bed, calling his name. She envisioned Polen, hanging on Can's arm, laughing. She was begging Can to make her stop, but he too was laughing. Then they turned and walked away together arm and arm. Yelling, crying, she tried to run after him but her legs were stuck, frozen and unable to move. And then they were gone......        She sat straight up in bed, crying and unable to catch her breath. Ah, Sanem, what are you doing, your letting that woman destroy you and the only love you'll ever know. She laid back in her bed, breathless, it seemed so real, did it mean something. She wouldn't let it mean something. She was worthy... she was a writer, an accomplished writer. Can loved her, so get all the other stuff out of your mind.......

She didn't need all this negativity, their love would be enough.....

She prayed for the morning, not wanting to close her eyes again.......

She needed to see Can, she needed that feeling that only Can could give her...........