Our Love....After Forgiveness

Chapter Five

Everything was done early and they headed out to relax at the cabin. Saying their goodbyes to everybody, and thanking them for the hard work. With leaving at such a early time, they could spend more alone time at the cabin. Sanem loved that place, it was so special. Although it had good and bad memories, that is where she felt the closest to Can. When he was there, it allowed him to be himself. Just simple, no demands of him, he could relax. He really wasn't a man of extravagance, the small cabin was the testament to that. She loved that about him. The trip there had been fairly quite, he knew she was still dwelling on the fact that Polen had sit up the new clients. He was going to make sure she wouldn't leave there with any more doubt. He hoped it was just a harmless suggestion she had given to Mr. Aubert.

He quickly started a fire, he had planned to cook some meat and vegetables over the fire. To eat and then relax together was the plan. She gather the blankets and the big pillows they used to lay on. Spreading everything out on the ground, but not to close to the fire, for the afternoon had become quite hot..She had already made the salad, she grabbed the trays for them to eat on and stretched out on the blanket to watch him. He took cooking on the brazier very serious, tending to it intensely. She loved to look at him, then the thought of Polen snuck in. It made her doubt what they had together, and that made her upset. Polen always weaved her way into their lives. Without her even being there, Sanem felt second best, so inept. She had no idea why she made her feel like that. Can turned to see her staring at him, he knew that look. She was comparing herself to Polen in her mind. Trying to measure up, but to him there was absolutely no comparison. Sanem was so much more Polen ever thought about being. Their talk would clear the air...

They ate until they almost burst. He cleared the dishes and plopped down beside Sanem. She was already snuggled in and comfy, but waiting for Can. They hugged together, close enough to feel their breath on each other. She looked at Can saying, " Why did Polen think you still had an on going relationship?" Did more happen in London then what you're telling me." She quizzed. Her eyes were pleading and sorrowful, so full of doubt. He hated for her to hurt like this. He quickly answered, " Absolutely nothing happened in London, bebek. " the closest she came to me was when they took the picture." And I didn't even want that, but it happened so fast I couldn't stop it. Trust me Sanem, there nothing between us and there never will be again. You have spoiled me for any other woman." He pinched her cheek, then her nose, telling her, " Wipe that frown off your face and let me hold you tight, and devour you with kisses." He laughed.

She pushed Polen out of her mind, forcing her out. She trusted him, but something was telling her not to get too relaxed about this whole thing, stay alert, she knew Polen would try something..But now was their time, alone together. Within minutes Can was sleeping like a baby, wrapped in her arms and smiling. She listened to his breathing, it was steady and smooth. It hypnotized her, and she too, quickly fell asleep. They slept hard, and better than they had in days. He awoke first, looking at her, drinking her in, letting her fill his heart and soul. She did more to him than words could say, he would have never thought love felt like this. So satisfying, like nothing else in the world mattered but her... she stirred, feeling him looking at her, she smiled, moving in for a kiss, he covered her mouth with his, that demand of her encased him sending a jolt through him body... He knew he had to stop, it wasn't the right time.....

They both decided it was time to pack up and let him take her home. The desire to share his life with her, had grown to a necessity, it was becoming more and more evident to him. As they closed up the cabin, he ran the options through his mind. First he would talk to Nihat, he hoped they would agree with him and give him her hand. Then he had to find the perfect ring. Ok, he thought, it's a plan, I will talk to him soon. He felt like a school boy, asking a girl to the dance for the first time. Just the idea had his stomach doing flip flops. He couldn't wait to tell Emre, but not Leila, she would give it away. As they drove home, he was unusually quite. When she would glance his way he had a stupid little grin on his face. She wondered what he was up to, he had such a satisfied look on his face.....

They made it to her house, this was part he hated most, letting her go.. He held on to her hand, kissing it. " Why do you always have to go home?" Can asked, with those eyes that she hardly break away from. She smiled, " Can, you know it's hard on me too, but I couldn't possibly stay with you all night. My parents would flip" she said. Can moved closer to her, swallowing her with his eyes, " You know what would fix all of these problems, don't you. " He asked. She felt her face become flushed, her breathing was quickened, she turned her head away. " Can, don't say anything you might be sorry for later" she chirped. Can became serious, looking at her intently, " What makes you think I would be sorry for anything like that, don't you want that too?" He questioned. " I can't seem to think about anything else" Just you and me together, that's all I need for the rest of my life." She turned and looked in his eyes, she saw the look of devotion and a deep display of love. It made her gasp, the look was so intent. Was he really sure, was she really sure.....that field of butterflies erupted inside her, her skin tingled, as he waited for her answer.

" Are you sure, positive, beyond a doubt." She asked

" Sanem Aydin, this is the only thing I've ever been sure of in my life..beyond a doubt in my mind, and positive of in my heart".......